+.+.reaLiTy.HurTs.+.+

forgot

2005-09-14T01:22:00.000+08:00

|.|Forgot to include smtg|.|

Ciko!!!!
Ciko was eliminated!!!
bOohoOO...
my cute Lil boy!!

still a bit 'im not okey' thingy

2005-05-10T09:06:00.000+08:00

<<.Im Still Not Okey.>>

im so in need of money...but i donno what to buy...yesterday...bought myself a pair of shoe...at far east plaza...went there after work...Yus accompanied me...

and here it goes...i hate the new attitude mum i've got here...she doen't care a single shit regarding others...esp me...yeah coz i have an attitude...yeah im the no good gurl...yeah im everything no good to her...

To anyone that don't noe me...i'll do wtever that i wanna do...even thou they districted me not to do it so...i don't care a single shit...i don't care wtever they wanna do to me...kick me off??scold me??shout at me??haha...i don't care...

Sorry to all my new msn friends...wtever...actually i don't want new friends in MSN...freeking irritating...ppl keep on asking shit...u noe shit??yeah...shits like whats ur name??hey profile friendster ade kn???bingit sey!!bile i didn't reply...tk suke!!marah!!leh jalan uh!!ingat aku kesah??kau siape aku nk pegi kesahkn??sdangkn diri sendiri aku tk kesah....nk kesahkn orang...Fcuk off Lah dudes!!

WHATEVER ON MY FRIENDSTER's PROFILE IS TRUE...NO DOUBT...
IM IN A RELATIONSHIP
IM 18
I LIVE IN SINGAPORE
MY NAMES
MY INTEREST
MY SCHOOL
TRUE OKEY??EVEN THOU I HAVE AN ATTITUDE...IM A NO NO LIER!!!!
DAMN YOU!!

today...im working pLus schooling...and today, didi's not coming to class...and that makes 4 absents for her...for me??1 absent and that was last week....and i really regret it...i'll definately go for todays lesson...and i'll never ever skip my science class ever again...

First of all...it's been weeks i didn't work with them...how will the situation be??will they treat me as good as before??or they've change too??well everyone change....they are the talk talk behind kind of ppl...so i don't noe...and i don't wanna noe...maybe infront of me...they'll be good...i don't noe...hopefully nope Larh...someone told me they kept asking where have i gone...yeah weeks not been working there seems like months....how i wish..........nevermind...

yesterday while surfing the net with full of suprises in my head...smtg bad happened...my borthers doing smtg nehing the computer...plugging in smtg...i dont bother to noe whad...he told me to swich off the speaker...i do it with a depressed stressful attitude way of mine...swiched off and accidentally push hard the speaker...and there they goes...he picked it up and yeahhh againn the speakers drop and heat the plugsss......and there...DARK...blackout!!and i'm so damn pissed off with my brother...after doing the box[physics...oh gowd i can't remember whad thing??] thing....the lights on...comp's on...but i can't get thru the net...another shit!!noe what i did??i bang n bang n bang on the screen...so frustrating sia...dammit!!

anyway......thanks to aryy coz he tries hard to keep me cool down...sorry for all the cold words that i've used towards you...all the shitty nonsenses...im sorry...Thar...thanks for giving me time of my own...i appreciate that...and the others...sorry i didn't reply you...

so stressful..

2005-05-07T20:56:00.000+08:00

<<.So Stressful.>>

today's my worst day ever...im so stressful...with all the problems my family had...esp. my mum and dad...and it's so F*cking irritating...irritates ME n my BROTHER esp. my Lil sista donno anything so it doesn't matters to her...

i thought it has all ended yesterday...on the family open session thing...but it turn out to be worst today...it started off early in the morning...i've been woken up by the shouts...mu mum shouts and scream on the phone...that's around 7am...im sick and i need a rest...Shout and shout...the content of her conversation really hurts me...till i cried...my dad's working...and hell...from 7am till my dad's home for lunch...around 2pm...i've to bare with all the shouts...my brother's Sleeping...me n my sister...i donno what my sister's doing at that moment...me??im here all morning...on the computer...and yeah...my mum irritates me again...she asked me and that...im so pissed off...my dad's home...even worst...and i've had enough...i went into my room...dressed up and i walked out of my room...went to the study room when my mum asked me where do i wanna go...i just said that i wanna go out...my dad asked me...where??i said...i don't noe...anywhere that i can get my own peace time alone...my dad shouted at me...he told me don't go anywhere bla bla bla...i cried again...infront them...my brother...seems not to bother whatever happends..sat in his room listening to his mp3 full bLast...i cried like one retarded gurl...my dad shouted and shouted at me...i still wanna go out...i begged my mother...but he still won' let me out...with reasons...he donno what will happened to this stressed pissed off me...anyway...they noe how i feel...i ran to my room and locked the door...i shouted and shouted like one crazy gurl...i don't care if ppl can heard me...my dad banged and banged my door...he told me to keep quite don't shout like one retarded gurl...i don't care...i screamed my lungs out and at the same time cring...i donno what's on my mind by that moment...my dad told me to unlocked the door...i said go away to him...im so stressful...i scream and shout...i cry till i can't even took a breath...as if im down with asthma...i9 can't talked properly...i myself get scared if anything were to happened...so i unlocked the door...my dad went in and he talk to me...i cried and he told me to read some prayers...the condition im in was so freaking scary...as if thats not me...some evil spirits in me...i cant breath...i feel like dying...i can't talk...i can't read any prayers...i stand up and walked searching for my phone...my dad followed me all the way...he's worried actually...i walked here and there...my dad immidiately hugged me when he saw me looking here and there..as if im looking for smthing...yes im looking for something...the whole house became so quiet..all bcoz of me..my dad hugged me...i pushed him...and i continue searching for my phone...went into my room i closed the door...my dad warned me not to locked the door...i guessed he's scared...im all stress up and maybe i'll do smtg stupit like killing myself...found my phone called yus...he noes how i cried...i cried like one mad gurl...i noe it's scary...i've lose my mind..........im tired sat down....cring...mind blank...playng with stuffs...going insane...i think of nothing...i cried...im scared...i cried and at the same time i smiled to my sister...im insane...retarded...lose my mind...

i can't type much...my eyes painful...

Don't Phunk With My Heart

2005-05-07T09:13:00.000+08:00

<<.Don't Phunk With My Heart.>>

No, no, no, nooo
Don't phunk with my heart
Yeah
No, no, no, nooo
Don't phunk with my heart

[Chorus]
I wonder if I take you home
Would you still be in love baby (love, love)
(love, love) In love baby
I wonder if I take you home
Would you still be in love baby (love, love)
(love, love) In love baby

Girl you know you got me, got me
With you're pistol shot me, shot me
And I'm here helplessly
In love and nothing can stop me
It can't stop me once I started
Can't return it once you bought it
I'm coming baby don't doubt it
(Don't make me wait)
So let's be about it

[Hook]
No, no, no, nooo
Don't phunk with my heart

Baby you have to trust him, trust him
When I come with lustin, lustin
Cause I bring you that comfort
I ain't over here cause I want ture
Body, I want ture mind too
Interestin' what I find you
And I'm interested in the long haul
Come on girl yee-haw!
(galloping horse fx)
Come on

[Chorus]
I wonder if I take you home
Would you still be in love baby (love, love)
(love, love) In love baby
I wonder if I take you home
Would you still be in love baby (love, love)
(love, love) In love baby

[Hook]
No, no, no, nooo
Don't phunk with my heart

Girl you had me once you kissed me
My love for you is not iffy
I always want you wit me
I play Bobby and you play Whitney
(And I-I)
If you smoke I smoke too
That's how much I'm in love wit chu
Crazy is what crazy do
Crazy in love I'm a crazy fool

[Hook]
No, no, no, nooo
Don't phunk with my heart

Why you so in-sa-cure
When you got cash and you're love herre
You always claim that I'm a cheata
Think I'll up and go leave ya
For another senorita
You forgot that I need ja
You must have caught amnesia
That's why you don't believe uh
Wha'- Yeah - Check it out

[repeat 2X]
Don't ja worry about a thing baby
Cause ya know ya got me by a string baby

Baby girl ya make me feel…
You know you make me feel so real…
I love you more than sex appeal…
Cause ya

[repeat 6X]
That-that-that-that-that-that-that-girl

[Hook]
No, no, no, nooo (That-that-that-that-that-that-that-girl)
Don't phunk with my heart(That-that-that-that-that-that-that-girl)
No, no, no, nooo
Don't phunk with my heart

[Chorus - repeat 2X]
I wonder if I take you home
Would you still be in love baby (love, love)
(love, love) In love baby
I wonder if I take you home
Would you still be in love baby (love, love)
(love, love) In love baby

[repeat 2X]
Don't ja worry about a thing baby
Cause ya know ya got me by a string baby

(Instrumental Exits off)

one month??

2005-05-05T07:34:00.000+08:00

<<.One Month Already?.>>

heLLo peeeeps!!

Im so darn tired...yeah...yEsterday worked nyte shift...muahahahaha...mcm keje pe je nyte shift...bLuekz!!!!!!i worked from 2.30pm to 10.30pm...not many customer yet very tiring...why??bcoz....i donno....hahahakz...

Today will be working from 2.30pm to 10.30pm...same goes for Saturday...Friday...6pm to 10.30pm.....

Sorry Larh sayang...i can't go out with you...i even TERforget yesterday was 040505....one month together...i didn't realised...sorry ye sayang...tu pon kalau u tk tanye, i teroslah tk ingat....cepat masa berlalu....Cey cey cey...bobal REal sey...

yesterday he waited for me till i ended i work...10.30pm plus plus...he had to go to work..he started working at 11pm....we went out from TMC around 10.45pm...so see...he's late...hermpz!!...we took cab...he send me to Orchard MRT station...and he proseed to his work pLace...Shangri La at Orchard....

Working with abang yesterday was oKey Larh...he teaches me this and that...anyway...Lots of things Larh...but sorry abang...i forgot the timing uh!!!!!sheeeez!!im deadmeat!!

OUh ya!!!yesterday...omy home, at Admiraty mrt...actually omy to the 7eleven Larh...i was listening to my deary[discman] full bLast...and i can't hear a single shit around me...BUT!!!!this two makciks of mine...[ehem2]shouted my name till i can dlearLy hear sia!!!incradibLe...whad a loud voice you have there makciks!!*claps*.....i was soh damn pyseh!!!yalah...pekak kn...they called me soh many times mah....bLuekz!!till this abang...took the same train with me just now...he set infront of me...Looking at me smiling....im soh damn pyseh!!!!!!!!all bcoz of the mkciks uh!!!!and now...ppL at Admiralty pLace noes my name....uwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!...evil makciks!!!!

whad else shall i bLab??my bRo bought a MP3...and im SoH sOh JEALOUS!!!!....
Nemind...now he aLready have a MP3, i can borrow his Hp!!!yeay!!!and yeah my HP suCks!!!i think, it's becoz of....the sea water...hahahahkz...ya larh...i went swimming with my hp whad.....remember didi?????huahuahua...............................haiyo....i want a new hp and a MP3 and a pair of new shoes and a new bag...gerrr...whad else dear ai??don't ask me...i want everything!!!!only if i have the money...if i was a rich girl... nanananananananananana... argggggh!!!

ok ok enuff yah...

yey!!!

2005-05-03T08:52:00.000+08:00

<<.WooHoo.>>

Yey niary tk work!!!!!!!

gathering

2005-05-02T19:13:00.000+08:00

The first part of today's gathering was bLuekz!!and that was at PASIR RIS PARK...so Lemmo Lame stupid Lame2 uh...i don't noe...did nothing...swim??arggh DIRTY!!bLuekz!!

So there we Go...EAST COAST PARK...FUN FUN FUN!!!!First of all...get to chiLL on my uncle's Lorry...butt pain!!!hahaha....serious!!no joke...BUTT PAIN!!!!hehehe...hey i got to meet my Long Lost cuzzie!!!Kak na n Kak ni...hehehe...hehehe...ecp was damn fun...we played monkey game in the water...the water was so damn high...hey i can swim!!!hahahakz...i helped save a Lil guy's ball...erk...Life saver!!!huahuahua.....

and guess whad....i'm TANNED again!!!...weeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....FUN FUN FUN....

i wanna go tan myself every weekend uh...how's tat??didi wanna join????

i mish him!!

2005-05-01T22:03:00.000+08:00

Dear!!!!i mish you!!!hehehehehe.............

Tomorrow, 7.30am....out of house...to??the beach!!!!again??!!yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

gonna get tann again!!!ouh gowd!!!wanna swim or forget bout it??herm herm...HELP me!!

Lady Marmalade...my sista's song...HER DANCE MOVES???SUPERBZ!!!!awwww...she's soh CUTE!!!!

tiLL here then...mummy's nagging!!asking me to go SLEEP!!!no way...My dear wiLL call me Later...herm hermz...k Larh cHow!!

i'm crying!!!bOohOO why oh why must PERFECT 10...erk bOohOo uwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...i mish my friends!!!!!
the graduation song!!!!!!
uwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! i can't forget the Last day of school!!!!!uwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

FRIENDS FOREVER ya!!!!!

hello

2005-04-30T17:46:00.000+08:00

eLo ppL...

[tuning to Bila Mama Pakai Celana]HuahUahhuUHa...[Ruffedge]...dancing with My LiL sista...heh..Thar noes this...since Yesterday...huahuahua....

HooLaHoOp HoOLaHOoP HoLaLaLaLaHoOLaHoOP...yeahhhh!!!!Thumbs UP!!

Dance Cha Cha aLL night yEsterday...TiLL i sweat!!!!FUnFUnFUn...

beem busy and yeah obViousLy soo Long i didn't updaTe my bLoggie...bUsy busY busy...woOkey...i won't be attanding my engLish and Math cLass nyMore...mY mUm n Dad Noe tHis oreDy...i aLways Ponteng One...so...nO use whad...[but the ponteng2 part they doNNo uh!!]started working at delifrance TMC since wednesday...even thou the pLace is small stiLL working's fun uh!!hehehe...bare in mind...i can't sLeep nO moRe after performiNg my Subuh prayEr...uwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....and yeah every night...i'll be verry2 sLeepy and yeah i'll definateLy sleeps earLy...as earLy as 8pm....

i went to work...i felt like i'm going to scHoOL...with the bLue pants...erk Like ITE students....serious~...maybe ppL thought that i'm an ITE stud uh...omy back home, i'll aLways be amongs groups of ite guys...they seat in groups...and yeah im in the middle of them[among them]as i sat in their circle of conversations...and of course i felt erk!!ppl would think that i'm one of them...arhhh...don't bother...don't wanna be among guys...but in reality...i have to...

Boring w/o MUSIC when going/came back from work...DEAR!!!pLease Larh!!u JahaT sey mcm Nie...tK nk genG uh!!!!!!

LaLaLaLaLa~

my LiL sissy..Firah was choosen by her t'cer...for a concert...she have to dance...KARMA??!!hahahakz...sad song uh??but hack care...She dance perfectLy...and she sings tOo...ahahakz...tgk Larh kakak Dier yanG aja!!!she's so cute with the geLek2 goyang2 thing...Cute CutE!!...and i think taufik's song to Larh...i dream...so two songs...her t'cer asked her to practice at home...cute nYer...mesti ciut budak2 kecik2 kementOt ni joget2 geylek2~isk tk saba nk tgk!!!!!!!

i think i wanna be aa earlY chiLdhOod t'cer uh...tk Leh tahan uh tgk budak2!!!!

ouh ya talking about budak2~...in the mrt the other day...thursday i think so...i was with Yus and friends...on our way home...in the MRT, there's a young mother with her cute LiL baby boy that loves to shake his ass!!!muahahahakz...soh CUTE!!!!awwww!!!buttt her mother was Like 'tonjol2 kepale tu budak...'....i was so shock...if he's my son...no way...i won't do that...in the MRT some more...kalau yepon buat Lah kt umah ke...tkmo buat pubLic uh!!!kesian seh budak tu...eh cute Larh tu anak!!!!!

wtf...inul voice...funny sia!!!!!huhauhauhuaa...cennot tahan!!!!wahahahahakz!!!dear!!power u uh!!!!kLaka!!!suare i Lagi sedap!!!hahahahkz.....

ape2 larh

2005-04-25T21:39:00.000+08:00

first of all..it's been days since i post...serious??no Larh where gOt..."WteVer!!"

don't ask me what's wrong with my blog...i'm just too tired to do anything nowadays...the only thing that i'll do is tuning to my deary no TWO!!!...

to be frank, i'm out for the whole day yesterday and today...and tomorrow, working[old one] and schooling...and the next day working again[a new work Place]...how tiring can i be...[i need no nagging ok ppl stop tagging stupid nagging stuffs...i've had enough...thanks for not tagging anymore mysterious ppls...]

yesterday was FUN!!!!24th April 2005...ppl going to some islamic gathering we, my ex-clasmates go get some fun...bwaHahahHAakz...Oupzz...but really i had fun!!!the "tarik tali" game was fabulous....muahahahhaakz...so many ppl injured uh???hehehekz...the first game was superb!!but rather rough Larh...but funny...hehehe...first time, the defenders had to tie their legs together...and defend their baLoons...that was superbly easy for us the attacker to step, poke, sit, clap, wteVer Larh with the baLoon...super!!!me n dara planned to push all of them...but err too evil...hehe..so the game was not counted coz it's not fair...the defender had to tie their legs and attacker just attacked w/o legs tied together with each other...muahahahhakz...so the second play was so damn freeking as*hoLic fun!!rough!!superbZ...i got to push maryam...but of course she didn't fall...coz she's bigger then me...heLLo how small i am uh ppl???hehehe...but managed to defend my baLoOn uh...aLone...took her so Long to get my baLoOn...fun fun fun get to push pull push kick tab slap step on ppl...hehehe...and yeah now, i'm having body crampzzzzzZzzz....awwwww!!!

i prefer the 'tarik tali' game...hahahahkz!!....we r so strong!!!but the very very freeking part was when dara my member was suffering liox!!!so freeeekin scary!!!we were all pulling suddenly i lookes behind me both MarD n Dara gone...i mean...they r both crumpled together...and i've been pushed by them...so it's like im in the middle of both gurls and irfan!!he's infront of me...i quickly pull irfan's leg and shout my lungs out...to stop the game!!!!they were damn deaf!!!!!!!!coz all of them were shouthing like nobody's business...crazy...!!!scraiest part ever...den no one wanna play the rope thingy anymore hehehehe....

i went swimming for a while...and den, went home...around 8 im outta ecp...reached home 9 plus...tired tired....

and today???went for the trainning...yeah...woke up 6.30 in the morning....the tranning ends at 6pm...reached home today???7 plus...

early in the morning, saw aaryy in the mrt...haha...he's cute uh??bLuekz!!i'm cuter...he called me...but i was tuning to my deary...soh can't really hear him clearly larh...but i saw someone LoOking at me and erk...i loOked away...hehehe...i tot some noTty guyz wanna pLay around...swweeeeeeeeeeet sweeeeeeeeeet....ape jer aaryy!!den when the mrt go...[go eh??]i saw..."eh mcm penah nampk...aaryyy???"huahuahua....den i do nothing Larh...wait for shai and there we go.....den saw aaryy again??!!!at yishun mrt station...i was with shai in the mrt...i dono why my head wanna turn behind and see wtEver...skaLi ternampk..."Oi!!tk gi skOLa eh??"...

ok Larh...tiLL here then...tired!!!tired!!i post craps today!!so don't read...if u read...wTever!!

yey...

2005-04-23T09:08:00.000+08:00

i can't believe this...for 3 solid days, i have sore throat????wow...so sian...i cennot eat anything delicious....uwahhhhhhhhhh....whatever i ate, bLuekz...taste sucks...why Like this?

tomorrow, there's a gathering for sec 5 ikhlas[2004]...and if i still have this sore throat i dono what am i gonna eat...uwahhhhhhhhhhh....but definately i'll be having fun Larh...we roxz!!when we meet there will always be fun!!!yey!!!i can't wait till tomorrow...can take pictures!!!yey yey yey....somehow or rather...i'm still missing them...uwahhhhhhhhhhh...hehehe...definately gonna miss them...coz we've been together for solid 12 years...uwahhhhh....

someone thinks i'm whining to much...yes i noe that...u don't noe me...i'm always like that...no offence...i'm what i am...i'm a no no pretender...i hate pretenders...and i don't want anyone of you guys to change me...i love to be me...

i think this will be alrite for today...herm...cure my eww eww ouch sore throat puhLeees!!!

i'm sick..

2005-04-21T19:10:00.000+08:00

yes i'm sick...i've no mood...

i'm sick...i'm so so sick...

but still i went to work...and i still end work at the time i have to end my work...

i'm sick...ppl can see that on my face...

i'm sick...i've never been this sick for a long time...

and this is such a bla bla bla for me..heartpain...

weak...i'm very very weak...i'm still very weak...i'm still in pain...

im here posting becoz i don't want to lie all day on my bed...makes me more sickening...

i didn't go to math class...and yeah tomorrow, i have to go to work...and i dono how i'll be...hopefully i'll be okey by tomorrow...

sick sick...head pain...feel like bangging my head on the walls....i want my bed...but i don't want to lie all day on it...

i don't want to be sick...i hate being sick...i'm so tired...tired...and that's why i'm falling sick so easily...

i LOVE akon...all his songs are so heart soothing songs...and yeah i like that...akon rox!!so do my chemical romance, simpleplan and yellowcard....

hermm...
head pain head pain...brain bursting...brain bursting...my LiL sissy's so damn annoying...shout here and there and yeah everywhere....argggh...she woke me up just now...coz my friend called me...and yeah this monday...i have to go for a tranning class...making me more busier...and yeah chances of getting sick is so damn high...

yesterday, i scolded yus...coz he's sick and yeah he's still online late at nite...i asked him to sleep and stuffs...but it's so shocking...the next day i woke up, [that is today]...i too am sick...and i still dragged my feet to work...and yeah i'm late...i came 30 mins later...

So weak till i can't stand properly...so weak till my talking sucks...i don't noe what i'm talking about...i kept doing arggh i don't noe...i'm just not feeling well and i can't do stuffs properly...and that sucks big thing...i hate doing stuffs wrongly...

i think it's too long and i better get going...this screen makes my eyes watery...

Don't let it up

2005-04-20T10:56:00.000+08:00

from AKON to LADY.Ai

(Don't let it get to you ooh babe)
Girl I know you're fed up but things gon get alot better
(Don't let it get to you ooh baby)
Don't wanna see you give up, whatever you do don't let up

Verse 1-
Girl I know that things are hard now and you're feeling like that you're all alone
(feelin like you're all alone)
Mom and dad's no longer round' now cus now you're grown with kids of you're own (ahhhhhhhhh)
Baby dad is nowhere to be found while you play the role of mom and poppy
(raisin them all by yourself)
Always home and can't go out now can't remember the last time that you were happy (ahhhhhhhhh)
Whateva you do...

Chorus-
(Don't let it get to you ooh babe)
Girl I know you're fed up but things gon get alot better
(Don't let it get to you ooh baby)
Don't wanna see you give up, whatever you do don't let up

Verse 2-
Every man that you meet on the streets your lookin at him like he's an enemy
(Just give us one more chance)
Girl I know that you can't hurt no more you've been damaged can't trust nobody
(ahhhhhhhhh)
And I know that you can just move on if you let you're past blow with the wind
(and smile more often)
Then you will find that guy that
(ooh yeah)
you always wanted from friend to husband
(ahhhhhhhhh) so girl I know that

Chorus-
(Don't let it get to you ooh babe)
Girl I know you're fed up but things gon get alot better
(Don't let it get to you ooh baby)
Don't wanna see you give up, whatever you do don't let upNo matter how bad things get
Girl don't let it get to youI know you're tryna make ends meet
So girl don't let it get to you
Ya only got one life to live
So don't let it get to you
Now go'on make the best of it
And just don't let it get to you

Chorus-
(Don't let it get to you ooh babe)
Girl I know you're fed up but things gon get alot better
(Don't let it get to you ooh baby)
Don't wanna see you give up, whatever you do don't let up
whateva you do, do, do
ahhhhhhhhhahhhhhhhhh

bLuekz

2005-04-19T16:53:00.000+08:00

Why do what i do??
Freedom ain't gettin no closer
No matter how far i go
They won't Let me out
They won't Let me out[i'm Locked up]

Maybe a visit[They won't Let me out]
Send me some magazines[They won't Let me out]
Send me some money orders[They won't Let me out, No]
Maybe a visit baby[They won't Let me out]
Coz i'm Locked up, They won't Let me out, no.
Where's my lawyer?[They won't Let me out]
I'm locked up, they won't let me out, no.
Get me out of here[They won't Let me out]

........................................................................................................

The judges said dont trouble nobody. [Trouble anybody]
Probation said dont trouble nobody.
Stay outta trouble dont trouble nobody.
And i'ma try not to trouble nobody.
I'm trying to stay away from trouble everyday,
but its hard when the things you need.
PictureLookin at your babies in the face when they hungry and they need to eat.
I'm tryin not to doWrong - But they wont let me do right.
Even tho I done changed my life criminal records' whatThey judging me by.
-thats why...

........................................................................................................

OBSESSED!!

Stress

2005-04-18T12:28:00.000+08:00

.............

Hermpz...i dono how to post...regarding my stressfulness bla bla bla..........

SOH STRESS SIA............

k Larh...Bye!!

whatever guyz...

2005-04-17T13:22:00.000+08:00

Wow...wow...oupz...wow??hahahahakz...WOW sucks!!

yey...i didn't noe chatting with aryy is Fun...but hahakz...kind of LammO Larh...but Lots of coincidences....such as our dis picz...both mine and his picz were in the MRT and and...the person on the right wore white and that's me n aryy and yeah the one on the left, both wore black...see coincidence...hahaahakzz..i didn't notice tat...

sorry to say this uh ppl...hermpz...i'm no no interested in chatting with someone i've just knew...so it's up to you...i'll chat with someone interesting...fun to chat with...ya...that's me...EGO??nope...that's what i am...EGOISTIC BUSTARD that's him...hahahahakz....hell yoU!!

hehehekz...24 th of April!!!!ECP!!!!go??i donno Ley...go LArh go Larh...eh i doNno uh...24 24...Sunday??herm hermpz!!....woOkey...i doNno Larh!!Shhhhhhhh~

AKU LAH DI BAHTERA CINTA TRAGIKA..........................Do SoMETHIN'..............

whatever...

2005-04-16T19:40:00.000+08:00

whatever okey ppl??

i'm taking all the good advises but that mysterious person is so damn rude!!!you think you can ctrl me??Looking down on me as if i'm what??STUPID??hello....i can go to NAFA, and take whatever courses i want LARH...i can also go to POLY if i want to...ITE oso can Larh...but my mother asked me to retake my O lvl...what???do u think i'm the one who wants to waste their money??eh sorry Larh!!!no tyme!!!

To whoever that wants to rule my world, just furk off...i rule my life uh!!!

Today went out yeah...went to IRSYAD took my testimonial and Leaving cert...but tOo bad!!they type my Leaving cert wrongLy...and yeah i have to wait for my ex-Form tCer to call me...yada yada...haizz...and and i have to go to school aGain???woaaah....

Then me, shai, ditz, zal, fan, ali n zam went to tekka eat...haahaha...so damn freekin HOT and STRESSFUL....then we went to bla bla bla....for me to noe and for you to find out...met muslim and taufiq there...hell yah fan and ali wanted to rent a room????huahuahua....and yeah all the rooms are fully booked...kwang kwang kwang......

Met my dear and yeah...thats how my day ends....yey...hahahakz...

Whatever you guys wanna say wOOkey...i don't care a shit...you can talk Shit and i can't??i can't be rude...i can't let all my fans down...what else????Furk Off!!!!

Okey2

2005-04-15T12:18:00.000+08:00

WoOkey WoKey...

Being way tOo emotional yesterday...Sorry aLright??to who ever Larh...Such as my dear and to my dear readers....being emotinal to me is everything...i Let it all out one day and the next day, all gone in my dreams...and i like it tat way...starting to chill myself up...starting to talk to my mummy a bit Larh...despite all that she's still the same...hehe..no offence aLright??

and i'm reconsidering to quit my mathematics and english class...herm herm...told my mummy aLready...but but i don't noe...

When i'm Down, sureLy there's one or two of my friends will also be in the same situation as me...Cool...yeah...[COOL UR Head!!]haha sorry...

I'm sorry for all the shouts i've made to Yus, to Shai to ditz to mummy to whoever... uwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh *Sob Sob*.....CtrL baby...ctrL...yeyeah!!

Hey...Niza!!!i mish you!!!muahhkz muahhkz!!! yey yey dah leh contact kak niza balik... yey yey...hehehe....i mish all the olden dayz....i mish enormous i mish the restuuuupid2 reLations that only last for like a week then gone...i mish all the lame gangsters[YOU SUCKS]oupz...no offence...i mish all the notty2 chat...i mish everything...bLuekz!!![Niza call me CUTE i call her BABY muahhkkz!!]

hey i'm happy!!hahahakz...no more emotional me!!yey!!herm maybe i'm soo soo damn emotinal becoz of my hermmmm....mOodSwings...ya ya hate that!!....ok ok...ctrl baby...ctrL...SeriousLy i miss all the olden days with all my free chatters...hahaha...we chatted for free!! weeeeeeeeee....

i think all the new chatters will be the LammO sex maniac thing Larh...Lucky2 mee stop that chatty thing when i was.....*Thinking*12??wooah...now i realised!!!that earLy???then when did i start dealing with all this chatty stuffs????woooaaahh....

and hell yeah i start nowing NIZA at the age 12 hehe.....this is Long....i better stop here....

no privacy??

2005-04-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

hey ya....

im not okey...im not o-farking-key....

boohoo....soh sad...Life sucks!!!

Sorry ya Mysterious person...i've Let all of my fans down...i'm soh Rude!!!

i can live life like this...why my parents have to be over protective??i'm EIGHTEEN...

i need LIFE of my own!!!why must they mold me??am i only 8??NO!!i'm EIGHTEEN!!!!

BooHoo...everytimes i see my mum or dad, i feel like crying...why can't they understand me??what i want...what i need in life???

I've told a few of my friends about this...and hell ya they said my parents shouldn't be like that...we teens need Life...i noe what i'm doing...WooKey???

even thou i'm so so RUDE...not following what they want, ok fine it's my fault but they are so irritating...i noe how, when to go home...they made me don't want to go home...kept calling and calling like there's nothing else better to do...SOH IRRITATING...[i noe someone's behind me reading what am i typing...but soh what??think wOokey??im no more a child...i need a LIFE of my own!!]if im not going home where am i gonna Sleep??TOILET??

i noe Larh it's all my fault...but that's what i want and what i really want...yadayada...nagging again??bOohOo...see it's 12.30 and ya here she goes nagging...bLuekz!!she thinks i care??nope i dont care a single shit...i'm used to it olready...bOohOo toO bad!!mummy mummy stop the nagging so Long and GOOD nyTe!!!!i don't want to be here in this shitty world no more!!!i can't stand my LIFE...sucks big thing!!!! i hate my LIFE!!!

p/s: TO IBU N AYA....if both of you read my post, i'm sorry...yah i noe it's my fault...but i hate to be in this kind thing...can you guys just understand me??what i want??and don't nag okey??i've had enough of both of you...i'm tired of all the notty2 bitchy bullets you guys shot me...yah i noe i'm a no no good gurl...i can be one...just don't make me be a rebelious gurl...will you guys understand me??

ya ya...heartpain!!!soh shoopid!!my faylt larh... i noe!!!pull my ears!!!go pull!!why don't you just KILL me??

all that had happened

2005-04-13T14:32:00.000+08:00

heLooOoo there everyone!!!i mish posting i mish my BLOG i mish my friends again??yeah i mish them Loads....herm nemind...saturday we'll be meeting again!!!yey!!!

10/04/05
My burfday Open hOuse...
fun fun fun...met all my long lost friends...muahh muahh muahh love them Loads!!!!there's Shai, Nissy, Rit, Jam, Fan, Mus, ALi, ZaLi, Wahidah, Ain, Didi, Lagi siape eh??tk ingat...sorRy kalau name tkde kt cni...hehehe...
Then some oTher ppL...Irah, Far, Fajar n his Friend, Akhbar, Myra, Dy, Hafees n his Friend, Yus, Fiz[moi twin heh], abG hilMi, cik Nora n her daughter, cik ana n famiLy, Kak Meow, herm lagi tk ingat Larh...hehehe...

Herm...i was surprised by Shai...hermpz...she told me she have to work bla bla bla but she's the FIRST one to reach my house...hehehe...she did some stupidest survey ever...hehe...you noe whad...bLuekz!!....i've set the time from 2pm to 8 right??and this dear of mine came at 9...hehe and yah Lucky him there's hafees and his friend...and there's shai tOo...Shai's the firsT to came and the Last to gO...yey~

ouh yah...want to see some of the picx tat i've tOok on tat day?? CLICK HERE

11/04/05
Outing...
Went out with Shai, Yaya and Yus...FirstLy went to Far East Go eat eat eat bUt i and Shai didn't eat muCh Larh...yaya did eat this Sticky2 Stuff wat was that??herm...then we went to Lucky pLaza...hehe...my First tyme pLaying PoOL, bLuekz!!hermz...met Yus there...yeah...he did play tOo but with his Friend Larh...after that shai went to some other pLace yaya went to some other pLace and there i am with Yus and his friends...they went for an interview...yurpz...and yeah that's it reached home at around hermm 10 pLus??yah...nagging all the way...but had a fun day Larh...hehehe...

weeeeeeeee....

2005-04-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

Herm...met hiM again todaY...in The afTernoon and nyte...wahahahahkz...

okey afternOon, he accompanied me ShoOping yey~

Went tO This Fashion KRANJI...and CausewaY pt...hermpz...i bought a Dress, and 2 bUrpday gift uh...herm herm [aI enough oF the spending okey??]hermpz!!!

tOtal cost on today's spending:
24 + 10 + 8 + 10 = 52 [around there Larh...i tynk Lesser uh]

woW....my wallet left 3 onLy....from 15....okey now you guyz noe Larh kn...i used nets!!!wahahahkz.....actually there's 65 in my wallet uh...but but 50 hav to giv my muMmy...i'm a goOd gurL mah give mY muMmy 100...hehehe....lasT week Gave her 50 oredY....

theN nyte, went out around 8 pLus...herm went to cik Nora's pIt...her daughter's burpdaY....went there with him...den he sempat pLay badmintOn sey...hehehe...there were cIk noRa of course!!!cik ana, hirwan[like tat uh ur name?] and amos...ouh ya...geeta....hhehehe...others??i dono where are they aLL...tOo maNy eating uh tOday...so damn freekin fuLL sia....hish....

kLah tiLL tomOrrow Den...Love ya Loads dear!!

Weeheeeeeeeeee....

2005-04-09T08:31:00.000+08:00

WeLL weLL...yeSterday was a Damn sturPId fuRkiN Nyte...hahaha...cOz, mY muMMy and DadDy naG nag NaG naG tiLL i keNNa MigraiN sia...so bad sey they aLL....

The stOry is....i went out yesTerday and reacH home Late!!!!arOUnd 12 midnyTe...erk oK that iS not true...herm...aLah TiLL 10 OnLy...chILL ya...hermpZ!!!

WenT out frOm 4.30pm to 10pm...oKey whaD!!!!

Herm i Went ouT wiTh yUs...wenT to hEerEn and and Yeah The No-i-don't-want-this-baju This Fashion!!!!hahahahakz....

anD today...i waNna gO This FashioN at KranJi!!!!!!herM...whaT to buY uh fOr ciK Nora'S daugHter???nO idea Man!!!

Yesterday kenNa Nag Like ToOot sia!!!haHAhahAHa....Lagi ckIt nk MenjawaB and kaLau menjaWab tuH wOoOOoaaah...aKu maTi!!!!SERIOUS!!!!NO JOKE!!!!!Tyme my muM nagging, i did aNswer her uh...den Tetibe My dadDy shOut sia..."KAU JGN BLA BLA BLA...."...Rude sia me....uwaHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh........deN i shuDdUp uh...Locked MyseLf in Ma roOm Turn oN the Tvee wiTh i doNo how Loud the vOLume was...and gUess whaD??i can'T hear theiR nagging!!!!!yey!!!!!

And after mY daddY go sLeep, i oPened the dOor...i Thought iT's OVER!!!!buT i was wroNg...bare witH my MuMmy Arhh....sHe came intO my roOm!!!ouh gowd!!!!and and she NAGed!!!!!!!and and...Naged and nAg!!!haiyo...i said "shh diam Lah org Tk dgR tvEe"....waH so rude....my mUmMy said..."jgN kurang aja eh bLa bLa bla org ckP dgAr Lah...".....oK den i dgr....den i answer her uh..."tkpe nk belete2 uh nnti oranG tk baLik rumah tK leh beletEr Lagi...aYah nk Ape kN org taK baLik...tK menyUsahkN dier nk Marah2 susaH2 nk Jage oRg...orG keLuar tk baLik poN ibu ngaN ayAh bukaN nyer kesah...bLa bLa uh..."dowaN to say uh...soH sad sia feeL Like crYing!!!!den mY mUmmY cKp "Kau suke kAn tk baLik bLa bLA bLa..." and i was Like shh shh Hush Hush aLL the waY....tk nk Ckp ape2 Lagi...deN she waLked awaY...........

soH sad sey yeSterday...watched sutera putih...haiyoooooooooooooooo cry cry cry!!!!so sad sey tat story...uwhhhhhhhhhhh.....dahLah orG ngan geraM2 sediH2 [nk larI rumaH ape kn]HuahuAhuahuAhuhah...joKIng Larh....if BetuL2 i doNo uh...

KLah2 Listening tO PINTAKU YANG TERAKHIR...and soH sadddd....feeL Like crYing!!!BoOhoOo...........k Lah dowaN to cOntinUe....

CaboT skoLa Lagi!!!!!

2005-04-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

Haiyo...so tired!!!!!

yay tonite can sleep in peace!!!!in an aircOnditioning rOoM!!!!yeppppie~

aT Last, the aircond can woRk again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i"m so tired Liaox!!!!!

haiyOoOo...doNo what tO post!!
BeeN bUsy aLL day....
tOmOrrow, will be going to JB witH my parentS and they've just told me, it's earLy in the mOrninG tomoRRow...yeyeyeyeyeyeye!!!!sO damn tired....

heLLo gurL..if You are sO damn tired, whY are You stiLL here??DumpShit!!hehehe....

I wanna gO eat Lioax!!!eaT what??Let me see Lah LateR in the kItchen...padehal tadi sampai umah ru makan nasik ayam...erk it was 30 mins ago...and and...before went out just now...herm...why i love to eat uh nowadays?????

Just nOw terpIker jGk...tadi at work, mY worKmatE asked me.."eH, kaU tk Tkt gemOk eh?" i replIed, "Tak uH..."...am i serious?????haha...erk..herm...tat's a joke rite ai???takut wOoOo if gemok!!!!!

eH kLah...ternampk my mum eat ice cream!!!!!*bLuekz*i'm gonNa be fat!!!huahuahua and i don't care!!![erk again that was a joke rite??]

Kanninah uh!!

2005-04-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

haiz...terase lah pulak...to mira, did i list out names???nope...i just said this to you...'kau rase lelaki or perempuan' right????and what's this??stupid!!who the hall are you, i don't want to noe...and you!!asshole, you can go fark urseLf!!

i hate all this things...if you didn't post stupid stuff 'DEAR' LEKIU!!!!all this things will never happen lah!!...YOU LEKIU, BETTER TAG!!i want you to feel guilty and i will never forgive you!!!you are such a stupid problamatic someone who is Jealous and WHAT THE FARK you want from me??am i being rude to you??no!!am i your....eh fark off lah...

THE LEAST YOU CAN DO IS TAG SORRY!!!

It's been weeks since i've used vulgarity words...and it feels great!!

i'm sorry ya dear yus, promised him but bLeah...all because of you!!asshole dumpSHIT!!

hahahaha...yeyeah....never thought ppl change so fast eh...like me lah...from one good gurl to a bad one and again good and again bad...haiyo...nevermind...at least AKU tk bermuke2...huahuahua...now i'm laughing!!!!!stupid joke sia...not funny can still laugh stupid!!!!soooh stupid!!!

i'm too evil to post!!!till tomorrow then!

Jealous

2005-04-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

if you are Jealous, do say so lah!!no need to hide it...

Do you noe that if you 'Doa' something bad to/for people, soooooner or later, you are the one who will get it...no fear...Faith is everything and who the hell are you telling me such stuffs??bOoHoOo yOu are jeaLous!!na ne na ne pOo pOo you are So jeaLous!!JeaLous Jealous JeaLOus!!!

met him just now...and again i reached home late!!all because of that stupid slow bus driver...ain't scared of my daddy bOohOo he didn't even scold me Lah...biaserlah...anak bapak!!!bOohOo na ne na ne Poo pOo hehehe...so happy to the max Ley!!!

TiLL here then aLrite....

helllo~

2005-04-04T12:39:00.000+08:00

Hello people...

this week will be the bzest week ever in my LIFE!!!

bz with WORK am, pm, am, pm...bz with SCHOOL tuesday, thursday, saturday...bz cleaning the house...gonna sell off this house yey!!!!ppl will be coming on this thursday...have to really really clean up my room!!!Saturday...gonna be home LATE!!!School, go Shopping, go pit!!!!yey!!!!and JENgJENgJENg...ON SUNDAY!!!!see how busy this week will be....

Alright..Maybe today i'll be meeting him..yurpz...but not yet confirm lah...and and i wanna quit working!!!herm herm...and cakes!!!!haiyo...pening2~nemind2~i can handle it!! yey!!

ouh ya...there's this one thing...makes me wonder, thinking all the time...who are they??the one i saw at wdlns library while i was alone that day????they even noe my NAME??wow...i don't noe them seriousLy!!!!i'm trying to be good...smiling at all the ppl there...hehehe...i smiled at this two gurl...and suddenly they turn back to see me and they were asking themself..."eh faidah eh?" then i just walk away!! freak me off!! erk i dono them!!!how do they noe my name????gerr...so pelik tapi benar...who are you guyz???herm...if anyone of you out there noes them, tell me!!!! hahhahaha...insane!! insane!! going insane!!! hhahahahhhahaha...am i that popular???hehehe...nolah JOking!!

Till here then better get going!! if not, my mum and dad will keep on nagging..!!bLuekz!!

invitations!!

2005-04-03T11:19:00.000+08:00

Haiyoo...

just finished sending smses to Starhub users...and yeah hopefully they'll get my msges!!herm..and now..to other user...haiyo...why can't you guys just spread this msg??puhLess...make my job more easier..to anyone who noe me..puhLess approch me alright??anyone everyone..you can tag me, e-mail me msg me at friendster, hi-5, hp bla bla bla..ouh yah MSN..do approch for more info okey??my ex-schoolmates, ex-classmates..my chat friends, my out of school friends, and bla bla bla...workmates??Settled!!

actually i'm worried lah...haiyo...i go and request Sunday!!!Shit me!!how how...sheez~[regarding work lah nothing important...]

Went out yesterday...actually there's english lesson yesterday at 2 pm...but i didn't go..cause im so so not in the mood to study for the time being..fer maths last thursday...only ditz noe what i've done..hehe..riiiite!!!

So yesterday i'm kind of a crazy gurL walking all alone..i went here and there and nowhere..haha..called someone but can't get thru..and i feel like some kind of hahaha dono lah..went to cp...round round round den went to Wdlns Library and i borrowed this web designing book..the book is so damn thick!hahaha...den after that...i went to someone's house..chill till around 6 plus...and there i go...and i reached home around 7 plus...and what more??

Today maybe i'll be meeting him..yey...bring along my Lil sista...herm maybe my brother will be joinning him..play soccer..but i dono Lah my brother..i'm going to call him later..yurpz..

yeah i guess till here then...till i post again...

Wow!!

2005-04-01T20:38:00.000+08:00

why i can open the invitation but none of my friend?Haiz...peLik tapi Benar!!

Okey why dont i Post List of names and then you approch me okey?mOre informations will be given..

1-Shuhaidah
2-Diyana
3-Hanisah
4-Muslim
5-Irfan
6-Alifiah
7-Nuritah
8-Jamilah
9-Erfani
10-Musfirah
11-Zudyra
12-Yusman
13-Adha
14-Afiq
15-Ain
16-Akhbar
17-Rabbany
18-Farah
19-Munirah
20-Purnama
21-Kak Nora
22-Niza
23-Kak Kathy
24-Rhani
25-Raihan
26-Zakiah
27-Shasha
28-Shima
29-Syahid
30-Zalifah
31-Cik Nora
32-Cik Ana
33-Geeta
34-Aish
35-Bla bla bla...i dono...

i guess my workmates later i tell them lah...too many too mention!!

In msn or anywhere you can approch me, just approch me alright?

i've been very very busy...i'm sorry i've not been updating...

It's like work, school then work again and then school and i want to QUIT!!!!hahahhaha...

yeyeyeye!!!

2005-03-30T15:51:00.000+08:00

C O N F I R M E D ! ! !

Well, well..My Friends, the gathering is on!!yeah!!and where??my house...more yeys!!herm..wait for my invitations huh..Will be passing to you guyz by the end of the week MAYBE!!heh..been busy LateLy...

yey

2005-03-30T10:56:00.000+08:00

Wow..what a super tiring day yesterday...Super duper tiring day..hehe..

Alright..yesterday, came to work late..an hour late..heh..no probLem..hehehe..i thought i start work at 11 but nope i'm wrong..and 10 in the morning..i'm still dreaming on my bed..Cik Nora called me and she gave me a shocking wake up..hahaha..thought of going back to sleep..but then i rushed rushed rushed..

Here i go..the first part of my day at work wah superb!!fabulous...but i turn out to be moody..all because of something and someone..I HOPE I WISH I'LL NEVER EVER GONNA SEE HIS FACE AGAIN..but in reality, i can't, i have to face him..and all his shitty things he've done behind my back!!Ouh People help me please!!

After work, the moody me walked slow motionly along the big field..people staring at me like i've done something wrong..but do i care?i looked at them and walked away..i super dooper hate this kind of things..

Reached home, cleaned myself up and get ready for school..see how tiring can i be..i didn't even rest!!ok fine i can but i don't want to..just too eager to meet him..hehe..*wink wink*

I don't feel like going to school but i have to i need to..and there i go...waited for him at Marsiling MRT..and damn it's so freekin hot..Read my Shopaholic and sister..and the story's so so made me go mad..hehehe..if you read it, you noe why..

He wanted to meet his god brother..but he's not at home..but but he did get to meet him after sending me to school..heh..alright...what about school?

Mr Elvin was late again????haha..and that cute guy talked to me???wow!!he's soo soo 'pemalas' hahaha..no offence huh afiz!!It was break time and he suddenly said this to me.."Nk kluar eh?Leh kirim?" and i was like "ah..nk kluar.." then i think..ape dier nk kirim?skola ni nyer canteen tutop..then i quickly said to him.."erk eh eh tk kluar skola lah..heh.." then i walked away..hahaha..We, me and didi thought he could join us..but we were and still are shy shy gurL..hehehe..overall Science class yesterday was fun!!and noe what..Mr Elvin told us he don't like his students to be so quiet..and he don't like pupils who don't answer his questions..we did, me and didi did answer his questions..den Didi did said something.."Eh!!" then Mr Elvin heard her and he said.."Ya..you two answered and thats good.." we were so paisey!!hahaha..and damn yeah the class was so quiet and only the both of us were shouting the answers..sometimes right, of course some of it wrong Lah..but we did try..and well done both of us!!yey~

Went back home..my daddy picked me uh..and hell again..in the car i didn't talk a single thing with my dad..i don't noe why..hahaha..

Reached home, went online..and what else..do nothing..and yeah smsed someone..he's so kind..thanks very very much dude..or should i call him dol??as he called me that..hehehe..no offence..i really really appreciate that..feeyooh!!

As usual...Late at night, i'll be on the phone with Yus..yeyeah..told him what had happened..and bLa bLa bLa..hehe..no fighting alright!!..hehehe..*wink wink* and yeah meet you later..

I guess i'll stop here..this is so so damn Long!!Sayonara!!

herm tired!!

2005-03-28T08:04:00.000+08:00

I'm tired actually..but i'm not going to sleep..or maybe ya, i'll go to sleep later after reading a few chapters of my bOok..

Right now, tuning to Salam sejahtera by samudera...feeyOoh...herm..it's only 8 plus in the morning..

Alright...thankz to all for tagging and thanks ya friends..thanks for supporting me..yey..i LOVE my bUddies...they are all supprotive..and to that someone toOoOo..heh...i noe who..bLuekz!!

Working yesterday night...and as per normal, fun..bOohOo..alright..alright..but the very very very fun part was when we were at the counter..and surrounding me were all guyz..and obviousLy they were all bigger then me..even though their age are smaller then me..funny huh??nope, this ain't funny...SERIOUS...and they were acting like kids...arggh of course...what's their ages again???haiyo...I laughed my lungs out looking at them...erk ouh ya..there's only like 1 ermm...yeah older then me..den we played with fLys...erk did i've just said we??ouh yeah..we..i took part too..hehehe..actually there's some of them that i don't noe...and yet see, we are friends already...fun huh??they are super social..not like what i'm in the past...but now, i am one...yey...super social...hehehe..alright...went off from my workplace around 11.30 pm...ahahahakz...another playing part...they stopped me from going back home...bOohOo...evil them...hehehehe..and at last i'm free...yey!!And hell!!i forgot to bring back my stuff...

Alright enuff of the working part...i ate aLot yesterday..wow!!didn't i??before work, at work and after work..wow!!huahuahua...

REached home yesterday and i quickly asked my brother to sign me on MSN ehem ehem..then, after doing some things, i Let my brother have all of the computer parts to himself...hehe..and there i go cLean myself up before calling him..and we talk and we talk for an hour onLy..Because, he's schooling tOday..and maybe today, i'm going to meet him up later...

enuff for today...tada!!bye bye!!

i dont care what ppl say

2005-03-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

I don't noe what i'm feeling right now..mixed feelings...haiz haiz...but all the fun fun stuffs alright..

and mind you all readers, i want to scrab off all my past..and you no no memories of you, you, and yeah you gurL..haha..being a good gurL huh..ok if you think i'm eviL, Let it be..if i've made someone or anyone cried, i'm deepLy sorry...i want to change..no more old me..so NEW LIFE ahead..a happy life..i'm happy, i'm trueLy happy right now..i'm a no no faking gurL no more..and i Like it that way..

I'm sorry for all mY shitty words or attitude..to whoever i've used shitty words on, forgive me..i'm sorry alright...i want to leave my past with no grudges..It's up to you if you want me to still be your friend..but will you promise me??no more of my past...i deepLy hate my past..and i want a new Life and i guess i'm having it right now...ALL BRAND NEW LIFE...

And to that someone..i like you too..herm..herm..*wink wink*

english

2005-03-26T21:08:00.000+08:00

English lesson today was superb!!

i Like it very much..and now, i need to buy Lots of school bOoks..Lots??huahuahua..no Lah..math, Physics, english..yesh..and just now, i bought a Book..heh..Hey such a gOod gurL..

well well..have been receiving lots of msgs in friendster...in the first place, i thought i want to ignore all of them..every single one of them..but that's so so evil me..so today, i've reply every single msgs..and there were 30 msgs..wow..so many huh??from different different pLaces..kind of cool actually...but sometime, i'm just so lazy to reply..heh..sorry Lah...

Actually, i reached Bishan as early as 1.20..ouh god..i dono how come i can be that earLy..and that place was and is still so damn boring...i walked here and there all alone..boOhOo..so boring Ley..if he were to be with me, kan tk boring..hehehe...

KLah..till here then..bubuyz..

well well...

2005-03-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

I can't take it when people are being so so damn KeyPOh with my LIFE..

What i want to do, is my wish and no one can interfere me..i'm no no stupid!!and please KIDS..stop it alright??i'm OLDER then you and you are like telling me something something??hello..i noe what i'm doing..YOU are irritating..i need no advise from people like you, you or even that HIM..alright??i noe, he's your best friend, good friend whatever..definateLy you'll be on his side..just shut up..YOU DON'T noe what actually happens between me and that HIM..so fCuk off will you???Stop irritating me with stupid advise..who do you think you are??some Ustazah??Imam huh??huahuahua..

Tuesday, went out with him, Wednesday, went out with him..Thursday tOo, heh..well well..To that someone...if i were to LIKE him, who are you to stop me??my mother??even my mother noes about him..and she didn't stop me..huahuahua...IF YOU THINK I'M CHEAP, YOU ARE DESPERATE..!!TAKE HIM, HE'S SINGLE..GO GRAB HIM..BLUEKZ!!I NOE YOU LIKE HIM!!

Wow..My house so nice Ley..yey..want to move out from this pLace..When oh when...i can't wait to move out from this full of memories house...
*Play Catching with my Abg Sedara..[Now, he's married]
*The Police case..[Long Story]
*Hari Raya open house..[My ex came]
ahhh and many more lah......................

HeLLo!!

2005-03-24T12:46:00.000+08:00

I'm having fun with my BRAND NEW LIFE...hey dUde, give me back my ENGLISH book and my EXIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Herm it's been 2 days i went out with him..yey..he's funny, fun to be with!!!Laughing all the way...and damn sheeez he's so popuLar!!!!!awwww...everywhere we go, sureLy there's someone who noes him..wow..

First day with him was...herm fun!!!i can easiLy get aLong with him..but tOo bad the firstday, we met not for long..i received Phone caLLs from his mUm..and there he gOes..bOohOo..heh..then the next day, went out with him again!!..woahhh...ok this time, hours and hours..we went to Yishun..to buy my school bOoks..yey..then we go eat!!and i didn't finish my FoOd..hahahakz..and he said that's why i'm skinny heh..am i??bOohOo..uwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...after yishun, we went to Causeway POint...herm..search for BoOks tOo...then after that, we went to AdmiraLty KFC..weeeeeeeeeee..i wanted to take his picxz!!bUt hermz!!!!hermz!!!!hermz!!!!jaga u!!!!!!!!!!then he send me hOme..and he went home..i reached home, get ready for work...and again i went out...

I didn't expect him to call me...so damn many times..I'm so sorry aightz??then he waited for me to finish work..he wanted to send me home, but then again i'm sorry okey??heh..actually he's working yesterday..but then he's Late..so, he didn't go to work..then i reached home, go clean myself up..and called him..yey..heh..that's around 12 pLus...herm but then, i put down the phone Lah cause he told me to use phone home..heh..i called him back at around 1 plus lah..we talked till 3 pLus then i went to sLeeeeeep...yey...Fub Fun Fun FUn day!!!argggh.....

weeeeeeeeeeeeee~`

2005-03-23T10:01:00.000+08:00

Ehem2...He's so CUTE!!!!

ok the end!

heLLo

2005-03-21T18:43:00.000+08:00

HeLLo peopLe!!!

YeY~
herm herm..went to Johore Baharu just now..went to Holiday Plaza..BooHoo..Boring..Go meet docter Dude!!herm..then we went to City Square..weehee..erk..I don't noe what to say..Fights!!gerrr..we are breaking!!!yEy!!sheeez!!eviL mee...

Bought herm herm Shadesss, herm..Chocsss...Herm..No Shoesss!!!No Mini Skirtsss!!BoohoO..ToO bad..if tHere's nO fight, i can buy many things!!!gerrr!!hahahkz..

Herm..YeY tomorrow schooL!!tomorrow Work!!yey!!Tomorrow meet someone!!huahuahua..Need tO call ditz Later at night..herm..tOmorrow oh toMorrow...Unity sEc...

hey PeopLe..mY ex-Classmates..Maybe i'm GoinG to Organize a smaLL gatherinG..But but i Don't Noe whether The pEopLe going to kuiz can attand oR not Ley..so sad!!*Sob Sob*..Maybe around ApriL..datE..maYbe..it's a Maybe okey??..9th of April..PLace??Not sure yet..herm..It's on Saturday Lah..No Worries..erk bUt then i scHoOL Lioex!!sHIt shiT..it's a Maybe..sOo NothinG Lah..Not saTUrday then Sunday oKiez??YeY~Take nOte pEEpz..

HeLuuu there

2005-03-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

Hello people,

thanks for reading and thanks ditz for tagging..erk oupz..thankz for tagging everyone..heh..

Today, today..nothing's fun..ouh ya, the foods!!yummy..i like..and and and Bunny boy's brother is soo soo cute!!!awwww...

And and and thankz Bunny boy for the advance burfday cake...heh..since you've been gone on my burfday..boOhOo to aceh..bOohOo..uwahhhh~

Hahaha..see see i'm no no sad gurl anymore..i'm a strong gurL..yey..thankz to my friends..thankz to Ditz, Lisa, Aish, bLa bLa bLa..

Yey..Bunny boy's brother!!!!so cute..*SpeechLess*

okey till here for today..Hopefully tomorrow will be a fun fun day...

haiyaaaa..

2005-03-20T13:54:00.000+08:00

Haiyo..tomorrow go jOhOr Lah giLer!!!Sorry Ditz sorry ****** heh..*wink wink*

but But we can meet after that right??yey....

end of post..

[psst:sape yang boleh bace, well done..sape yang tak boleh, banyak dose tu...go taubat segera!!]

well..

2005-03-19T14:26:00.000+08:00

18 March 2005 is the end of us...

Hopefully you'll find some other good - better girls then me..It seems that you don't like every single thing that i've done or still doing.So what's the point being together right?I'm chilling myself up..and don' t worry alright ditz..i'm Alright..

I'm telling you something..in fect im telling everyone..I'm happy when i'm with you..BEING WITH YOU??[rarely meet]..can you see i'm not happy at all times..I need you but you don't care..You said it's not that you don't care..But to me, hell ya, you don't care a single shit about me..If you care, you won't be doing all the things that you've been doing to me..haha..

I guess, you are pLaying foOL on me..playing shit with my feelings..You are breaking me into pieces..As i've been saying, I'll always Love the old you and i miss the old you..the NEW you sucks big thing!!i'm sorry..I'm deeply hurt and i guess i'll do anything..Let it all out..I'll talk craps..I'll do nonsenses stuffs..I'll do anything for me..I want to be happy..I guess Ditz right..Long long time ago, i'm a happy happy gurL..Loves joking around, chilling, happy always..but then when i'm with you, every single thing in me changed..Always moody, unhappy, LONELY..and i'm sick of all that..i'm LONELY..Even though i've told you all that, you'll never understand..tell me i'm too emotional..tell me..but who cares??you don't care right??You make me like this!!when i tell you, you won't understand me, it's always my fault..not telling you anything..what's this??you are the one who walks away when i need someone..

Tears starts fLowing when i saw your nick yesterday..herm today tOo..i'm over this end feeling so Low..you over the other end happily chatting with some other girls..and me?you leave me all alone!!haiz..now ai be strong!!you've cry enough..don't waste your tears on that stupid stupid stupid ToOot..you've wasted so many tears on him..stop it alright..such a waste..stop it!!!!

Its been two day, i've been crying and not sleeping..my eyes burning, my face argggh..BUT WHO CARES right??no one cares...

Demolition Lovers

2005-03-19T12:54:00.000+08:00

Demolition Lovers by My Chemical Romance

Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and

I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running

But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of...

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every...

All we are, all we are
Is BULLETS I mean this

As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms
Forever, forever
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning
Forever, and ever
Know how much I want to show you you're the only one
Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun

And as we're falling down, and in this pool of blood
And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down
And in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down
I'll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood
I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever

hoMe again...

2005-03-18T20:32:00.000+08:00

Ya, i'm back at home.Guess what?i didn't even talk a single sH*t with my brother or father.Still pissed off with them and i'm kind of not in the mood since i reached home.

Working today was alright.Fun and will always be fun even though it isn't.Hahaha now i noe that i've saved i don't noe who's number in Rabi's hp.[i'm not used to 3200 nokia phone.heh.]Try calling this number 91788971..Hahaha the Chinese lady/guy was so damn angry with Cik Rashidah.I'm so sorry alright people??it's my fault saving the wrong number..In the first place, do i noe my number??

Received my hp bill today.Anddd my bill, errm isn't that bad after all.Not that bad.$40 plus..ya, not that bad..but still, my mum can't stop nagging..i guess, she wants my bill to be $1000 i guess i'll do that.Then the next minute after seeing my bill, she'll go silent all the way...

I don't like the feelings when guys buy me stuffs..i feel like there's something feeesy..the feelings that i don't want to noe but i'll definately will noe.He'll say it's just a gift but deep inside??who noes..Heard of some shocking news today..but i don't noe whether it's true or not..Just can't be bothered with all that.

I can't wait till next week..maybe on monday i'll be going shopping yey!!!get my shades, shoes!!yey!!!and tuesday it's the day that i've been waiting...SchooL!!!i ever had this childish thoughts.."SCHOOL SUCKS"..but after leaving school for a Long period of time, missing school..that's the feeling in me..and now, we have to brush up need to buck up need to clean up all the rusty parts in our brains...it's not easy..i'm feeling the pressure right now..

Sometimes i have this feelings..i don't want to go to school, i don't want to study..but still i don't want to be stupid!!so i guess i still have to go on and live all my life with educations..i love schooling, studying..but sometimes the people, teachers and my lazyness kicks me off from loving all that stuffs..my heart is controling my mind..hah..baddy baddy..

I guess i've blab tOo much for today..till here then.I'll post again if tomorrow never dies..

haiz haiz

2005-03-18T11:06:00.000+08:00

aGain, Last night i had a great cry..all because of no reason...stupid isn't it??it's my brother who turnED up the speaker so LOUD in the middle of the night and yet i'm the one to bLame...haiz haiz..stupid stupid stupid...i hate this kind of stupid stuff..iF they really hate me, then tell me so..bLuekz!!there's no need for you to shout and scream in front of me..u are waking up the whole bLock my "DEAR" father!!!!!!i noe yOU want to scream your Lungs out Like my fav band YELLOWCARD...but yours are worst then ToOot...hahaha..stupid..screaming at me in the middle of the night and it wasn't my fault...and noe something...my brother didn't even say sorry to me..HELL!!!he just went away leaving me all alone with all the stupid shouts and screams~

well i guess ppL are Like that..when they need something they will be super nice..and when somethings gone wrong they will just leave it...as if there's nothing wrong...haiz...

at least today now in the morning or whatsoever today..i didn't get to see my father and brother's FACE!!and i guess i'll go off to work earlier..yey~...BoOhOo

fcuk them!!

2005-03-17T23:56:00.000+08:00

**** my brother, ****my father!!!!i **** them!! stupid dumpSHIT uh!!!!stupid brother!!father like i donno whta to say!!basically guys uh like shit!!hell stupid SHUT UP LAH HELL!!i HATE YOU!!stupid stupid just shut up lah stupid!!!!

LIKE I CARE????want to dump me??go ahead i LIKE!!!!hell you!!GO TO HELL!!!KILL ME more better what LIKE you used to say!!KILL EVERYONE!!!you like it that way right??

PECAHKAN LAH BABI SIAL!!!!BABI BABI BABI SIAL UH!!!!

yey...

2005-03-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

herm..what to post today??

actually i don't noe what to say here..Yellowcard rox to the maximum!!hahaha...i'm in loveee with their songs..yey..i love them so much!!muuaahhkz!!

well well..i want to go shopping!!!ouh mummy..please!!!i'm tired of not going out..heh..[padehal2 hari2 kluar kn??]..

i really2 mish my friends..yey next week i start schooling..yey..i like..loads of them are going to kuis..wow...how come??herm..bOohOo..chat with azie..weeee...but for a while only..bOohOo..well she's going to kuis..eh is the spelling right??hahakz..well all i can do right now is to wish all of my dear friend..all the very very best of luck to you guyz okey!!

herm herm what shall i blab??i guess nothing..math oh math...math!!!!!i'm going crazy mad mad crazy!!hahahakz..haiz math....

awww...

2005-03-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

i didn't expect this to happen...aww.so shhhed...crycry...Bluekz!!

work was superbz!!yeyeah can be superbz or super bz...hah..it's not Sir Wan but it's Sir Mazlin..heh..fun fun..hey why am i so in love with working??Crazy!!no sabo or anything
yey~hahahaha...

weee...tomorrow work!!!yeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~
i'm sleeepy...so bye2...Bluekz!!

HerLow...

2005-03-16T15:07:00.000+08:00

Hey hey...

So bored..and i'm doing this cause i'm bored..heh...

ok ok..been missing my dear dear friends.....how are you guys doing right now???where are you guys right now???bLuekz!!i miss all the older days...BLuekz!!Miss Miss Miss them!!bOohOo...

Today..nothing much Lah..cause it's only 3pm..huahuahua..so boring leyyyy...yey Later i'll be working...yey..Kick my boredness out!!shoo go away!!

Happy today!!

2005-03-15T22:07:00.000+08:00

"Ting kerting ting ting"bunyi bising dari dapur.."aaaa...aaaaaYAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!", "aaaaaaYAHHHHHHHHHHH...ade Lipas!!Lipas!!banyak!!cepat2!!!!!!!"aku jerit semahu-mahunya...ok ok..actually tadi nk masak..bey skali bukak kebinet kluarkn periok..den terase bende gerak2...eeeeew..lepastu dah nampk tros ape lagi..tejerit aku..hahaha...

ok tu tk pasal...dah nk dekat abis masak..tinggal nk letak telor..skali telor dier mcm laen macam jer..dah masukkan dalam kuar...sekali telor dah busuk!!!eeeeeew...malangnyer nasib aku!!haiyoyo...

tgah lapa kn..so mcm trasure hunt lah gitu....cari lah ape2 yang boleh dimasak..tengah geram ngan ibu sebab tk gi buang telor yg dah busuk tuuuuu..sheeez!!

Jeng Jeng Jeng!!!!yey ader makanan...so gi masak lagi...ni time baik2 uh ngan telor..sebelum teros masukkan dalam kuar, pecahkan kat mangkuk dulu...haiz...haiz...den skg dah kenyang!!yey!!happy!!

tamat sudah sesi memasak...sekian terima kasih..

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Alright, earlier today, went out yey~

with my dear dear darLing..weee...walking all the way..this is all because of my zero $ ez-Link..stupid stupid..hermppp..nevermind..at least i'm happy being with the one i love..yey~hahaha...Long long time no see..miss him so much..hahaha..i went out around hermmm 4 plus or 5 lah..den reached home around 9..yeah..kind of tired..actually i'm tired..

tomorrow's working...haiyo...what will sir wan do..hermp!!!!makes me walk away just like that again????hahahahakz..damn no way..don't do that again please..heh..

herm okey till here then...i love you darling...huahuahua...bLuekz..

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oupz..not to forger a simple message for Myra's sister...GET WELL SOON okey dear friend..may Allah bless you..

here i goes again...

2005-03-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

hey!!i'm here again!!yey~

So funny funny managers i have there..hahahakz..they want to sabo me!!ahhhh bOo i'm not scared!!bOo..hahahahakz..they wanted to sabo me on my birthday..way way too long..hahahkz..and afterall, they won't be there...hahaha...Sir mazlin with his new born baby..and Sir wan, aLah..they won't be there LAh..heh..yey~But but this wednesday, oupz..maybe Sir wan wants to sabo me..Ouh gooowd...Lets us see..herm..but i work till 10 not 11 yey~

Just now, all of us, had gone crazy and dirty minded!!oupz..they even called me BLa bLa suni!!!yuckz!!disguesting!!bLuekz!!..cik Nora and cik Ana are so soOO yuckz, damn, Dirty minded eh!!hahaha...very Noty!!bLuekz..there's a new GurL..yeah..heh..going to be a Lot of fun..hehe..oVeraLL, all of them there are Like that..maybe some of them nope Lah..the Baek Baek ones..bLuekz!!they are friendly, crazy, noty, cheeeeeky, and all that Lah..heh..

mY dad's so sOo funny!!haiyo..what's wrong with all of them today??hahaha..what eh?herm..pondan??eh??can't remember..something like that lah..hahaha...

wey wey..

2005-03-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

Wey wey..haiz..what was my dream all about??

there's Lots of different people in the same house..there's Hafees's Sister, my ex, someone's mother, bLa bLa..but something's fishy...why on earth is my ex Living under one roof with Hafees's sister??wow!!ok ai ok ai stop it..it's just a dream ok??hahahakz..kind of funny...and why on earth, my brother and i went out with my ex??huahuahua...funny2...and at that moment too there's someone's voice asking me something..once he used to ask me this.."Kau suke tak kalau steady kau kluar dengan lelaki lain?"wow...strikes me!!huahuahua...

ok ok the dream is overrr...and i thank God!!...

ouppz...i'm going to be late for work if i blab a little bit longer..so there she goes..shhhhhhhhhhhhhes!!Gone!

so bored!!

2005-03-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

I'm so damn bored..haiz haiz..me and my brother were not allowed to go out!!!!boohoo..so sad!!

so here i am again..infront of this computer..well, just called my work place and yey!!i'm working tomorrow!!!heh..from 12 to 5...wednesday, 5 to 10 i guess..yey!!tuesday i'm not working so anyone??want to go out with me??ouh please!!i want to go somewhere but!!!argggh my transport fare!!!i hate it..erk can we walk instead??heh..

i'm so so bored!!can anyone please talk to me??haiya..can't stop eating cause i'm bored to death..haiz..thankz to hitzradio.com...at least i can dance to the beat..yey!!

going to be crazy, crazy, crazy tomorrow!!yey...i like!!having fun with all of them...heh..

i want to meet you ley dear dear..miss you very much..heh..till here then..hey knoe what??!!Kanye West's voice is so so cute!!

eeeeew...

2005-03-12T21:26:00.000+08:00

arggh so damn tired..i worked 8 hours today...from 12 noon to 8 pm..wow..so crowded!!till one of my friends said to me "oh dah banyak orang kau cabot eh..!!" huahuahua..but working is fun!!..i love working..i love my workmates..they are so cool..fun to be with!!..heh..

actually, i'm supposed to accompany my brother..after work..so sad..i didn't..heh..sorry dear brother..

i was so shocked upon reading one of my friendster massages..wow..so erk..freak me out..i hate that kind of massages..want to meet up for a chat..erk..no way..i won't be going out with strangers..he's talking shit..i don't liike..and i guess i'll just ignore him..eeew...

i guess till here then..wow..nowadays, internet to me is soo soo damn boring..nothing to do..rather sleep then waste time here..hah..

Yey!!

2005-03-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

Yey!!Phy/Chem is on my way...yey!!

went to ITE Bishan just now..with Didi of course..oUh ya..before that, actually didi wanted to do resume..but then we were so hungry tiLL hahakz..onLy she knows..we went out and there..i reached home at around 8 plus nearly 9..quite tiring..went to woodlands Library..Study study study..went to bishan..went to Khatib night market..huahuahua..

My dream items...Shades[hehekz, natok uh!!!], Pair of Shoe, ring, neckless, bags, ok ok too much..what i really2 want is money!!!haiz haiz...transport fares is driving me crazy...i hate it so much..in a week, $20 gone!!can you imagine????from wdlns to bishan, a doller plus nearly $2!!..haiz haiz..

too many sad memories..haiz haiz..i can't handle this..help me ppl..please don't do this to me..i'm going crazy over stuffs and ppl...argggh..

This shop at Heeren i guess, they sell so many beeeeauuutiiifuuLLL stuffs...and i Like!!i want to buy Lots of things there...im going crazy...oh, i want my pay!!i want it badly..i don't care what ppl say..i don't really care what them want to do..huahuahua...

coloured contact lens!!!!!!!!arggh...i want money..huahuahua..ok ok i sounded so dresprate..haha..ok lah no need money lah...i don't need them...i still have them..don't worry...heh..but still, i can't wait till 20th of march..then 22th of march...SCHOOL!!!!yey!!!i'm so so bored at home..rather go to school then laze around at home..i'll do nothing but sleeping...

They are so kind!!arggh...so kind..i like them very very much..thank you very very much..heh..i'm hungry i want to eat..everyone's sleeeeping...argghhh...

Till here then this is really2 long...ouh ya..the 'what's the dillio' music video is soo ewww...uncensored!!huahuahua..So sorrry!!

All i have

2005-03-11T11:56:00.000+08:00

All i have by Jennifer Lopez

Love is life
and life is living
Its very special

It's such a shame but i'm leaving
Can't take the way you mistreating me
And it's crazy but oh baby
It don't matter whatever don't prase me

LL Cool J ~ I don't believe you want to leave like this
I don't believe i've just had my last real kiss
I do believe we'll laugh and reminise
Wait a minute don't bounce baby
Let's talk about this

JLo ~ Well i'm bouncing and i'm out son
I got to leave you alone

Cause i'm good
Holding down my spot
And i'm good
Repping the girls on the block
And i'm good
I got thins thing on line
So without me you'll be fine, right?

All my pride is all i have
You'll be needing me but too bad
The path you chose to run alone
Here with me you have a home

The nights i've waited up for you, promises you made about coming through
So much time you wasted, that's why i need to replace you

Stop playing, you gaming, i got to leave you alone

Ppl make mistake, to make up, break up, to wake up
Cold and lonely, and chill baby you know me, you love me, i'm like your hommie
BLa bLa bLa...heh

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Ohh ohh a'ah yeahhh

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I'm making a Lot of mess here in my own bLoggie..hah..
weLL, what's been happening throughout this week...

* Upgraded my Computer..[Thanks Hairil]
* Been Listening to online radios...[Chill myself up]
* Not been updating my bLog..[It's obvious]
* Something gOt to do with My manager..[From anger to funny]
* With my workmate..[Stupid mistakes!!]
* Been searching for lyrics..[all day Long]
* Busy doing something for someone..[Heh..ader uh]
* Been hanging out tiLL night LateLy..[Tired!!]
* Started flipping of bOoks..
* Been sitting aLone dreaming outside my house..[what am i thinking??]
* Finished up my pay...unwisely...[arggggh]
* Bought so many things..[There's lot more that i want]
* Im in Love...with mY dears..MEST!!!!
* Meet up my friends....oh ya...been missing them so much!!!
* Play the gRaduation Cd over and over again...[Over and oVer agAin]
* read my YearBOok and made me Laugh Like crazy all aLone..[Over and oVer again]
* Missing my dear!!

Lots more to go..but i guessed that's all foLks..

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You love me buT you don't
You Love me buT you don't
You loVe me but you Don't Know me!!

List of songs..

2005-03-10T08:36:00.000+08:00

List of songs that i had a crush on since the first time i listen to
GS Entertainment: Rock: GS-ENT.com

* 2000 miles - Mest
* what's the dillio - Mest [Cute cute]
* Sending postcards from a plane crash - Fall out boy
* Drive away - Gratitude
* Falling away from me - Korn
* Smile like you mean it - The killers
* Out of control - Hoobastank
* I feel fine - Riddlin' kids
* Attention - Adelphi
* I don't know - Lostprophets [My long lost Fav band!!]
* Flypaper - Allister
* Take it away - The used
* Letter to you - Finch
* Flowers - Never heard of it
* I'm okey, you're okey - MxPx
* Lasting impressions - The starting line

2000 miles..

2005-03-10T07:54:00.000+08:00

2000 miles by Mest

Did i miss your call again?
No, you never called it was a thought
inside my head

Did i take the fall again?
I should have payed attention to all
the words you said

Cause lost today

I'm not okey

Heartbreak, a fake smile, and
2000 miles..

I've been falling apart
Since you've been gone i don't
noe where i need to start

If i told you that i love you,
would it matter at all?

If i told you i need you,
would you catch me if i fall?
Fall.

....................................................................................................

Smile like you mean it by The Killers

Save some face,
You noe you've only got one
Change your ways while you're young
Boy, one day you'll be a man
Oh girl, he'll help you understand
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

Looking back at sunsets on the Eastside
We lost track of the time
Dreams aren't what they used to be
Some things slide by so careleesly

Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

And someone is calling my name
From the back of the restaurant
And someone is playing a game
In the house that i grew up in
And someone will drive her around
Down the same streets that i did
On the same streets that i did...

Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

Oh no, oh no no no
Oh no, oh no no no

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Army of freshman Rawkz!!!!
Gratitude Rawkz!!!!
Mest!!!!Awwww thay are so SooOo cute!!!!What's the dillio???..
Awww aren't they cute??Their VOICE!!!!

Why do you love me

2005-03-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

Why Do You Love Me by Garbage

I'm no barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
So i've done ugly things and made mistakes
And i'm not as pretty as those girls in magazine
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if i'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud

WHY DO YOU LOVE ME
why do you love me
why do you love me it's dirving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me you are driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me you are driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me

You're not some little boy
Why you acting so surprised
You're sick of all the rules
Well i'm sick of all your lies
Now i've held back a wealth of shit i think i'm gonna choke
I'm standing in the shadows with the words stuck in my throat
Does it really come as a surprise when i tell you i don't feel good?
That nothing never come from NOTHING man!!
oh man ain't that the TRUTH??!!

WHY DO YOU LOVE ME
why do you love me
why do you love me it's driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me you are driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me you are driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
i get back up and i do it again
i get back up and i do it again
i get back up and i do it again
i get back up and i, i do it again

I think you are sleeping with a friend of mine
I have no proof but i think that i'm right
And you still got the beautiful face
It just MAKES ME SAD MOST OF THE TIME

.....................................................................................

I guess, there's nothing for me to bLog..i'll let out my feelings through lyrics..

all about you

2005-03-05T20:23:00.000+08:00

all about you

It's all about you
It's all about you baby
It's all about you
It's all about you

Yesterday, you asked me something i thought you knew
So i told you with a smile 'It's all about you'
Then you whispered in my ears and you told me to,
Say 'If you make my life worthwhile, it's all about you'

And i would answer all your wishes, if you asked me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't you know what i'd do
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tops, it's all about you

...

this song blew my mind off...argggh...McFly..they rox!!

Today today..it's my sis who do her thing on this computer..wow..she's so clever..never thought she know how to use the mouse and keyboard..wow..she's cool..i guess schooling for her does worth it..Well done my dear Zafirah..heh..but then..me and my brother really can't touch the computer when she's playing...hahakz..and that made us PING!!Nevermind..

woke up late

2005-03-05T17:31:00.000+08:00

woke up around 3 pm today..recieved a lot of messages..and a call from i don't noe who..

been flipping through the first few chapters of the new elementary express textbook for secondary one..secondary one mathematics is more easier then the upper secondary mathematics..obvious!!

and i'm having fun!!yeay~

i Love secondary one mathematics..better get going..study study study...yeah!!..

another tiring day

2005-03-05T01:15:00.000+08:00

another tiring day and yet im still not sleeping..

what a frustrating night..why oh why should we talk about it??im so tired and yet im still here..

can you guys just stop all the rumous??i hate it ok??we are nothing...argggh..ppl ppl...why won't you guys understand me??its a wonderful day today yet someone ruined my day...till im so so moody..i've no mood to talk to anyone at work..i feel like going back home..i guess i didn't talked much just now, didn't even smile..sorry guyz..i'm just not in the mood...

mathematics oh mathematics..i guess im going to reopen my mathematics book...and it's going to be a hard time for me to get my understanding back...haiz haiz...mathematics mathematics...

i guess..someone else had ruined my day too...but its okey..nothings bad..made me think..and i should be thinking and thinking...so that i can understand my maths easily..yeah!!

im so happy

2005-03-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

hey did anyone read the new paper??

yey~ im so happy...im so happy...yey..im glad im not the only one..and hopefully they will change OUR grades...yey..my english yey...change2...

im so happy~ yey yey yey ~ hahaha happy~

OK so pening

2005-03-03T11:29:00.000+08:00

im Sick..argggggh!!!

considering and still considering...what course should i take??or should i just concentrate on my retake subjects??discussing what i want with my parents make me sick..they want me to follow what they want and that makes me so *i****, *a***** *s*****...........haiz haiz...

its only 3 days and i've had Lots of fights with my parents...sometimes i just feel like i want to give up!!it's me not them!!so why should i bother listening to them right???thankx to Rit, give me Lots of courage ppL!!i really need that!!...

im considering on this courses..[vitual arts, arts teaching, office skills tourism, diploma in business, early childhood...]ahakz..lots of them right???

oh yah one more thing..i don't bother ppl [my friends, no friends, enemies...] talking behind my back..but they are an ******* ****** ********..Shocked!!so so favouritism...ITS NOT FAIR!!!i hate you guyz!!trust me!!i really really HATE you guyz!!!HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!!!!!!!!...favouritism!!!i'm so lucky i'm out of that school!!!hah..[it's not that we don't want to try our best!!!it's you!!!busy busy you!!and now you are what??i thought you are a great **** but you are not!!hell!!same as that ***...I HATE YOU!!!!]hahahaha...so stressed up..so so argggh..

think i wanna go to sch tomorrow???haiz..working lah...why don't they just give it to us on monday??Last monday???waste our time and money!!!tk tau pe dah kene byr adult FARE!!!

want to noe how i feeel???

2005-03-03T08:22:00.000+08:00

i feel like crying, shouting, laughing, sleeping...this is all because of 'I'M SLEEPY'....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and tired too..

arggh...went to ITE bishan yesterday..registered for the 2 subjects that i want to retake..but i'll be retaking 3 subjects..the LAdy over there key in wrongly!!!!!!!!!!!help meeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! i want physics/chemistry NOT biology/chemistry...oh goddd...what shall i do...call them up??[but bare in mind they are very very busy]..

yesterday reached home around 11 plus nearly midnight..hah..the day before too..reached home around midnight...and today, most probably, not till midnight..around 11pm...i'm so tired.

my plan for today...2nd time to NAFA, going to pay the registration fee around $21 plus2...go for an interview[cost around $30 plus2]!!!total cost is $50 plus2..ouh...[yesterday was $128 and today???]then rush back home..get ready for work!!wow..

what a very very busy week...call here call there, sms here sms there, search here and also search there...the internet have been a great friend to me every morning!!!!and i guess, i'm not using the net for a long long time right now right??yurpz..and next week, study study study...yeay!!at last i'm going to school..tuesday[maybe], thursday and also saturday...and i've already met my MATHEMATICS teacher!!and he's COOL!!!! i like!!!! he's already encouraging us!! an i like that!!can't wait to study study and study!!!i'm tired of not flipping books and do nothing [online for days] ahakx...

but my worries for now is my combine SCIENCE!!!!!!oh ALLAH help me please!!!!i want PHYSICS CHEMISTRY not BIOLOGY!!!!

it's nine in the morning and i'm not sleeping..want to noe why???because i don't want to over slept...like all this days..ahakx..and i need to go to NAFA..i don't want to be rushing home Like on tuesday..but luckily working that day was fun!!

i guess i'll stop here..been yawning and yawning..BUT I DON'T WANT TO SLEEP!!!!don' fall asleep ok AI!!

made up my mind!!

2005-03-02T17:06:00.000+08:00

alright...i've made up my mind...!!!!!

full-time nafa visual arts[dono can make it or not]
part-time o LvL 2 subjects

ok with it??haiz..i guess so..i guess i'll be very very busy...herm...need to studyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!it's been months i didn't even flip thrugh my school books...and now, have too..coz next week, its gonna be study time..herm.....

received calls from Shai and her interview was puke puke ouch s*it..erk..i'm so scard..i dono where to go..i'm so lost and i've no courage..ouh please someone help me..my mom wanted me to go to moe and apply for the arts[teaching]course..and i don't want..i've no courage..they won't ok mother..haiz..

i'm so nervous till i apply for the PRs and outsiders..haiz haiz...i've to reapply..but i donno whats the results..herm..so scard...

did plan smtg with didi just now in the morning..i thought of taking office skills in tourism at ITE clamenti..the course, i find it cool and there's lots of tnteresting things we study there..but..my mother...haiz...if i didn't get thru NAFA, i'll be dead meat!!!!

called MERCU and asked them regarding the early childhood course..i told didi and she said it's expensive...for diploma, 16 months $7000 plus...while cert, 4 months...$4000 plus...herm...my oh my...i donno...what am i going to do...

ok forget about the first line in this post...i have yet made up my mind...haiz haiz...

talking about the fees, i guess NAFA's $3260 for the 1st year...

yesterday

2005-03-02T14:48:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a very very tiring day of all...

woke up at around 12, get myself ready.Went out to shai's work place..at TMC..then went to NAFA..thought of registering for the arts(teaching) course..but too bad, we've wasted our time..we can actually register online..and erk we are not $$%%*...we have to register online through MOE website...

oh god..wasted a whole lot of time..haha..

planning and still planning...yurpzzz...

today??

2005-02-28T22:27:00.000+08:00

today, had my results..went to school..and it was fun not seeing anyone of us crying..but theres smtg...way to much...they laughed at mee...[so malu]...kah kah kah...[sape2 yg kt multi-purpose hall jelah tau]...

hahaha...i can't stop laughing...ok ok..it hurts okey??you guys dare laugh at me??hahaha...herm...even me myself laugh...hahaha..so pyseh...haiyo...mr muneer said he want us me and shai to make up his face tooooooooot...because, he saw my eyes..i was like drawing...artistic stuffs..on my eyes..hahaha...black lines..wow..so very gothic..

went back home..then went out again...someone blanja..yeah..me and shai...after that, went to cp..shop shop and shop till shai's drop..

i dono what else to say..

waiting and still waiting..

2005-02-28T13:10:00.000+08:00

oh boy..45 mins to 2 pm...that's when we can check the sean webbie for our result..and i'll gerentee the net will be really sLow...

arGGggghhhhhhhhh.....my hands...shivering like i dono what to say...eating makes me go bLueks...i didn't finished my food just now..the way i talk...oh who oh why...even my voice is shivering...gerrrrr..how can that be???i can't talk..my dad asked me smtg i say smtg...i mean only a word and fullstop!.wow..so scard..

i think i'll stop here...i'm not concentrating on what i'm saying..or typing..

whats wrong??

2005-02-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

hey tell me!!what's wrong with this two guys??or is it a guy who wants to play fool on me??

the main thing is that i will never trust you guys...

he told me he is a psychologist...huahuahua...do i care??i won't trust you ok dude??the end of my talking with you...i feel like you and him..there's a connection between both of you..now you want to fool me??do i care??i don't care alright...because i trust no one..hah..well well you are one hell of a dude..stupid answers to my questions..do u think i'll trust you??dream on dude..hah..what's the used of telling me all the good stuffs about him??[or was it about you??] haha...

went out just now, with my Lil sista and myra..myra was soo soo hungry..she kept complaining to me that she wants to eat..so there we go...after that , we went to CP, went there, oh god..my sista..she's so so not co-operative...makes go go hey hey!!you go back home!!go away!!i don't noe you!!..haha..but she's my sista..can't do that..once she cried out LOUD...i was so shocked!!and so ashamed...haiyo...

ppl thought she's me child..hahaha..wow..so sad...do i look like a mummy??no i don't...and please..she didn't look like me!!hahaha...wow so evil of me just now...only myra noes what i did to my "child"...poor lil sista...

i had a great time yesterday..

2005-02-27T10:42:00.000+08:00

i had a great time yesterday night..i had a great time crying without anyone besides me..

while listening to [almost here] understand each and every words..the song really hurts me..and that's great..i cried out loud..no one heard me..of course..it was 2 plus in the morning...and the date on my hp freaks me off..thought that today is 28th of feb...i thought today i'll get to noe my result..but i was wrong..[feeyoooh]..it was 2 am..and the date was 27 feb..i thought the next morning would be 28..yah i'm going crazy..

alot of imaginations playing on my mind yesterday while crying...backstabbers, busteds, assholes, friends, results, anger, fights, more of crying and lots more..making me not to trust anyone ever again...egoistic busted..ignorant busted..i hate everyone!!!

i've been rejecting almost everyone who pm me on msn...even calls and msges too...as what i say i want to talk to no one..-the end-

my mum did see changes in me...she even noe, i mean she guessed it right..i've problems...when she asked me, i'll just keep my voice to myself..i don't want anyone to noe..and definately she'll walked away dissapointed with her daughter...so what...am i not dissapointed??i want everyone to understand me..but no one ever will...

at last i'm crying again..

2005-02-26T21:38:00.000+08:00

why am i crying??why when i let it all out...i'll definately will cry??

sometimes i feel that i don't want to share my sorrows with anyone..but i can't..[result belum kluar aku dah nangis..]..i don't noe what's wrong with all the people around me..they are making me go crazy..[baru nk kuatkn semangat nk berubah..tros tk jadi..]sorry to say this..i can't change when i myself hate my life..don't tell me lies..if You were me, what will you do??if you hate your life, hate yourself, definately you'll ruin your life right??[guess what??]...crying and more crying make me sick and lose hope..beginning to hate everyone..[i used to hate everyone around me]...i don't want to talk to anyone anymore..

anyway thanks to myra..i've let it out to her..but i'm sorry i can't continue..i'm so hurt..painful sorrow...i won't forget...[awwwh this song makes me cry even more (almost here)]...

when i need you, you are almost here...and that's not enough...you are only almost here.....

the moment i reached my workplace, smthing reminds me of him...a song...really really reminds me of him..luckily i didn't cry...haiz...... but still life must go on......................................

so tired...

2005-02-26T18:24:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired...

today, finished work at around 4 pm..today, lots of fooling around..even though theres alot of things to do..and we had to do it really really fast...i thought i will be late for work today, because yesterday, reached home around 11 pm..end work around 10.30 pm..and then, azhar called me after he finished work [talked about something regarding workand stuffs], they were all very noisy...shouthing like no body's business..this Rhani, his voice was the loudest of all..ahakz..Sir mazlin too, he asked me to go to sleep..that was around 12 plus...

i didn't realised actually till today, i've never been eating rice for weeks...is that true??yes it is..hah..i think i better go eat now!!!yesterday i didn't eat a thing..wow!!good lady huh...no need to eat and you won't be fat..and life will be shorter right??yey~

well lets talk about my new specs..it's pink, frameless, thick!!ok lah not really thick..it's nice, adorable, bLa bLa..but when i put it on, i don't feel right..i don't noe why..my vision was clear..but i don't feel right..hah..i don't noe..my mum scolded me...because if i were to buy contact lenses, it's more cheaper..hahahkz..sorry ya mummy..not my fault, the spacs..hahakz..

oh ya..what a shocking phone call i got from a long lost friend...Beng Chye..he's a cool friend of mine..he's i forgot his age..hah..well long time didn't chat with him..i miss all my chat friends..haiz...what to do, life must go on...right right right???yurpz..

well i guess everyone in my house noes the lyrics to so confused!!!!weee~all thanks too me...even my LiL sista noes how to sing that song...hah..

i think it's long enough..i'll stop for now..

nothing to do..

2005-02-25T12:37:00.000+08:00

i've got nothing to do...so i guess i'm going to post something for today.

still listening to the so confused song.went to mercu's website. i'm interested in one of their programme...but the programme wasn't at their website...it's a new programme..and if 'IF' my result wasn't that good, i'm not going to ites...i'm going to re-sit for my O LVL examination...under mercu..i guess..praying hard my result will be alright...two more days to go..

do we hav to go to school on monday??then if it's not on monday then when??what i noe, we the private candidates, we can get our result through the sean website..

my friends want to enjoy ourself before getting the results...well to me, i've no mood..no enjoying mood no more..i don't noe why..well to all my dear friends..i'm sorry alright..i don't want to enjoy myself...To shai, i'm sorry, i won't be going to the NAFA open house...to irfan and the rest, sorry, i'm not going anywhere..to azhar, sunday??no way..i'm not going out...

today, friday, start work at 6 pm..till 10 pm..and tomorrow, saturday, from 9 am to 4 pm..wow...confirm i'll be really, really tired..

i can't wait to upgrade my computer..this computer is killing me. i need money money money...when's my pay??herm...

regarding the singpass thing, i was so called dumb!!i didn't realised there's another page for me to fill in..haiyo..nevermind..i've sent my online request for the singpass...

erk, just received a message from irfan...again asking me out..with all my buddies..hurm..herm..hmm..i don't noe my dear friends..i'm not going out..alright??i'll be soo tired by then..ya i noe you guys want to have fun before getting your results..but not me..heh..nope..not me..even though you tell me you guys are going to watch the movie i really want to watch, no i won't go..haiz...

i'm losing my head over my o lvl result...hah..

today was fun...

2005-02-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

Today was a fun fun day...why oh why...i'm not sure about that..heh...

had been doing opening since yesterday..today, we just started our new promotion.worth trying...heh..

so happy..i don't noe why..been tuning to so confused..from just now..been on the line since nine plus...on the phone i mean...online too..i can't stop singing...

so Boy what you wanna see
wanna see me get down on my knees
wanna hear me begging baby please
wanna hear me crying for mercy
oh Boy i wish i knew your world
i think i'm losing my head over you...

update later uh..
not concentrating uh..
hahaha...singing and still singing...

what about today..

2005-02-23T17:31:00.000+08:00

well..my dear, why would you think that way??friends will always be friends..i will always be with you..sorry to say...its been days we didn't get along...when i say smtg, you say this and that...telling me this and that...i wanted to talk to you...but it seemed like you don't care about me..and when i let it out to someone else, you told me i'll definately will fall on him...oh god...i don't fall for guys that easy...

it's up to you to decide...from what i noe, me and him, we are only friends..okey??hope you'll understand...

it's been days since i start working, 5 days off..today, i felt like it's my first day working...i have no mood...counting money makes me ill and i just want to give up...but i still go on...

amos reminds me of my o LvL result...friday...herm...is it really on friday??

tiLL here then..i'll update whenever i'm free...

Let me clarify...

2005-02-22T07:12:00.000+08:00

Let me clarify...i only state regarding on my friends in this few posts.But actually not him onLy are the one who helped me change...but i guess someone had given up upon changing me...it's alright...i guess changing wasn't that easy...i can feel the laziness in me.But i still force myself up..i'm afriad this will never be for long...but pray hard...i will...

i guess thats for now...i don't want anyone of you to get me wrong...not only him helping me...alot more...but it seemed like he's the only one...helping me while i'm changing...because there are perfect silents and he is the one who ringed my world...he's a good guy..praying hard for you..hopefully you will be a good guy till the end..

i guess i'm not used to waking up early...i'll need to try...try alright??try...

WassaLam..

about today

2005-02-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

someone did helped me alot today...i'm glad he helped me willingly....he even told me that i'm he's cLose friend...i never thought after telling him my misery life, he still accepts me as his close friend...i never thought guys are like that...he's one of a kind...i can easily tell him what's in my mind...and he always tell me that i can...even thought it's difficult, i still can do it...thanks to him...i'm changing hours after hours...thanks my friend...

today, i'm not working...tomorrow too...tomorrow maybe i will be following my parents to Johore Baharu, take my specs and my mum's too.so i guess i'm going to ware my specs at all times...

herm herm..

2005-02-21T13:44:00.000+08:00

ermm Ermmm...nEed to change aS soOn as possibLe...i've just realised that i've long Lost...maybe because i'm enjoying life too much...

i'm sick and tired of what my mum and dad[mostly it's my dad] bLab at me...they are telling me the same old thing over and over again...alright, now i know why...i'm so stubborn!!ya..i noe i am...i don't want to hear a single thing from anyone...i'm in my own world...i guess now, i'm sick and tired of myself...

all this made me think and i think by changing will make me someone better...thanks everyone who've made me realised how lost i'am even thought i'm an islamic school student...

someone made me realised that by reading the holy quran everyday will make my mind in peace...i guess that's a good start...i'll definately make him my idol...

i'll pray hard and i really want to change....to all readers, thanks for reading and do pray for me...may Allah bless you...

WassaLam...

okEy continue...

2005-02-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

coNtinue froM where i stoPped....

tOday was okLah.....HahHAha...ok actuaLLy there was me irfan and aLi onLy...what????yeah...onLy 3 of us...the rest???pRooooz....donnO...i went ouT at around 1 pm...did some mOney2 thing...liKe take moNey and tOp up mY ez Link...wa piAng.....................juSt top uP $10 then the enD of my day, left $ 4 pLus sia...wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........so i donno wat to say....so sad.... :(

wait and wait for them...at Last there was Irfan...[around 1.50???]yeah...or was it 2 pLus????not finished yet with the waiting thing....Ali........where are you????hahaha...he reached admiraLty around i dOnNo...2 pLus nearLy 3 i guEsS so....ok ok...tOok 969 then 8....reached TP around donno Lah...hahahaha...4 pLus the engineering bOoth were aLL......tadaaaaaaaaa...notHing...hahaha...nothing at aLL....ok first we went to the businees and stuff then went to the design and LastLy to the engineering...bLa bLa....okey LAh...we did nothing...LooK around....the gOody bag was......erkz???hahahaha...sO erkz???ok ok i dono why the gOody bag was Like that....and guess what...in the bag there's Like Lots of notepAdz....wOw...Losta them...6???or more then that...wow...

waLk waLk...oUh ya...we haven't taKe ouR Lunch oR whatever Lah...then we were aLL hungry...so this TOW guyz were sOo i doNNow...wanna eat at a NO housing estate....NO many ppL....YES peace pLace...YES nice viewing pLaces....wa piang Ley.....at Last we were at CHANGI AIRPORT....yeah....hahaha...Irfan did some stupit thing...pLaying with his fOod....hahahaha...and mine tOoOo....he did soMe art werk witH the fOods....yoU noe wat..the rice waS fULL so damn fuLL....sungguh murah hati...a PLATE FULL with rice and on top of the rice was the Lauk n stuFFs....sO spicy....i didn't taLk much juSt eat eat eat tiLL i'm FULL then i stoppEd...i can't stand the spicY thingy tOo so i stoPped...irfan did a GoOd joB after doing his art, he ate his art oFf...hahahaha...and he was Like taking part in a competition....hahahaha...me and aLi seat back and Laugh at him....HahHAhHAHa....then we leave my pLate with Irfan's art...we ToT the cLeaner wiLL Like a biT shoCk or smTg after seeinG it...buT we he didn't...ouhhhhhhhhhhhhh~we were Like heLL Laughing LoOking at him and he did noThing????Wow...he didn't appericiat arts....hahahaha....stupiD art....

iN the buS, we pLaned smTg for TOmorrOw...yeyeahhhhh..........tOmOrrow...we'LL be going to a burfDay partY...we've pLanned to watch Movie before going to the burfday party...yeahhhh....bUt then they are aLL coupLes and i'm singLe...hahahaha...CoOL...we'LL be watching i dono uh i do i do or Hide and sEek...yeahhhhhhhh.....

Herm...sO tiLL here then..choUz....

weeeeee...Today...

2005-02-19T11:48:00.000+08:00

its 12 nOon and here i'am poSting...hahahaha...don't even noe what wiLl happened Later in the evening oR even night~

nevErmind...heard this baby dono whOs crYing and stiLL crying...i wonder why sO Loud and sO gRrRr as iF there's nO one there.....

oKey just nOw when i was happiLy sLeeping...IRFAN caLLed me...they wanna go Tp and there i am dono am i awake???hahaha...teLLing him okey i'LL be foLLowing...bwahahahahaha...from what i heard, there wiLl be aLi, Rit, Fan, meee, MusLim and nO one...i guess...sHai's werkiNg...didi's SLeeping...if noT i'm sLeeping tOoOo haahahaha...meeting time 1:30 at adMiraLty..........yey yey dgR jugak kate aku eh FAn!!!hahahahahahaha....

ok Later at Night i'Ll be poSting regardiNg what happen Okeiez???duh!!bLah!!!

a stupid day

2005-02-18T21:52:00.000+08:00

whaT a daY today....

Boring stuPid crazy shocking day ever...i hate it!!!

bLa bLa went to scHoOL...witH fani chitty cHatty...tiLL Novena...den wenT to shai's werkPLace...we ToOk the wroNg buS...bLa bLa...waste mY $....yayo yayo...bLa bLa bLa...wenT to scH rainning heavyLy...sO damn Hot!!!stuPid stuPid i hate resuLts...i mean i hate waitinG for resuLts...stuPid...i hate it!!!!!!

aSshoLe wtf with the sinGgpass thing???SomeboDy teLL me!!!!heLL heLL...i wanna Die!!ASAP....!!!heLL heLL!!!stupid!!!!i hate my Life....

why an i sOoOo Like this??hey why ask me??asK my god uh!!!stupid sia...oK ok i'm sOo damn frustrated okey???i'M not being rudE but being me~...hahahaha...yeah i'm ruDe huh????

bingit BINGIT...asaL dgn kau uh????isk!!bodoh sey...bingit tuL!!!criK pasaL ngan akU!!!ingat kaU sorg je pe???kire akU kene paham kau??mcm tu??eh sini aku nk biLang kau satu bende...."BOLEH BELAH UH!!!"

hahaha...wat a happy Life i'm in...weeehaaaaaaaaaa~happY happY happy...ok rite now...i'm smsing Purnama~...and and do this thing caLLed testimonials and more testimonials for amyrah...Yeah...fun~

nOw yoU guyz can see how confused i am...i can be happy and at the same time angry...CoOL....

today oh today..

2005-02-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

Today????nothing fuN~

nothing noThing...so Boring...yoU noe what???bOring...yeah...bOring...aCutaLLy i haVe to werk tomOrrow...but Then haVe to Go to scHoOL...So...nOt werKing!!!!!!!!yeah...hahaha...

kIndoF jeaLous and sTuff uH yestErdaY...witH i-don't-wanna-fren-YOU-FrEaKy-Dy....hahahaha.....buT then nOthing Lah...kacau2 Dier...gayRekz...hahahaha...nOt gOnna Give iT to yOu even thOu aLah...u Noe whaT...hahahaha....reaLLy uh...haNya mYra saja yg taU betaPa HOT nyer aKu smLm...huahahahaha...n mYra uh tk RepLy tau taU je oFFLine...mintaK kene sekeL...hermz...

waNNa watch HIDE and seek or i do i do...???i doNno...HIDE and seek cite antU...i do i do citE Love comedi....which oNe!!!!akU mcm menyindier jerk...HIDE and seek...hahahahaha.....constaintine[mcm gitu speLL??] i read the bOok at a bOok stOre...bOring jerkz...Like argh bOring...bace a few chapz...meleret...tk suke tk suke...nantOkz...hahahaha....

ByknYer org nK ajaK kUar...haiyO...nk kuar ngan doRg ke tdk...hermz...i donno...i just feel like i dowan...but then da byk kali toLak undangan...bwahahahahahahkz...BUgis???wahLau...da Lame tk Lepak saner...haiya haiya....think Fai think yang mana satu????want to foLLow or teman bLa bLa bLa them oR not????i dono uh...you think!!!!

shOppinG~

2005-02-16T20:35:00.000+08:00

weeeHeee...wenT shOpping~

Shopping with my faMiLy......oK went tO jB...and boughT a Levis jeans...wiTh thiS hendsOme guY...fEeYoOo member mY brO n mY mUm...waHhHh...i osO wanna be hiS member...pLeaseeeeeeeeeee!!!then...yeay...made a new specs for me...piNk...iF not the Lens oso piNk...then...bLuekz....just pLain wiLL do...nExt weeK then the thinG wiLL be reaDy...yeah...i got a New waLLet...yeah~...hehe and it's PINK...again...ok ok...tOday aLL my new stuFFs are PINK in coLour...yey~mY fav cOLour...yey~...hahaha...i Like...Hp sTrapZ..pinK..a GiodanO's Shirt...pinK...weeeeeeeeeeee~wat eLse what eLse???aLah aLL PINK stuFFs uh...

okOK todaY i feLt as iF im the onLy chiLd sey...GeRek..ape nK sume daPat...weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~i Like....mY sis wenT to scH my brO tOo...i'M so LucKy....yey~best best~yey~hahahaha.....

ok nOw i doNo whaT to stoRy...wenT to CP witH my brO...rOUnd2 tiLL we doNo wherE to go...then wenT to imm witH my faMiLy...oK easY say...i'm nOt at hoMe aLL Day...aLL nighT yeah...i'am aT home...weeeheeeeeeeeeee~fun fun fun...gerek2~i Like........................

what a boring day...

2005-02-15T20:36:00.000+08:00

boRing nyer niaryyyyy.....nothing to do....

ok ok werking from 11 am to 5 pm...aLah went back home Late...bcoz...bLa bLa bLa...den azhar waLk me hoMe...hahahaha..aLah he oSo wanna go hoMe...so waLk togetHer...oritez...ok Today got this pain stuFF on my tuMMy...arggh..cenNot tahAn...luckiLy ciK nora hav paNadoL...paIn kiLler for me...yeay...den oKey oreDy....afTer thaT ciK noRa verY the noTy....pinch me here and there...hahahaha...dah Lah my skIn sensitive...aLL red~one time she draw2 on my hand...haiyo...Like scar Ley...she said "Cantek wat...like tatOO"...hahahaha...crazY huh???we pLay around...we've goT nothinG to do Ley...hahahha...

Tomorrow noT werkiNg yey...dono wanna go where...maybe go to JB...maybe meet dIdi....i wanna go take that ridessss...beside CP...pLease...i want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!saPe nk bLanje????hahahaha...padehaL ader duiT...haiz haiz...hahahaha...jahat sey aku....i wanna go watch movie summore....who wanna go with meeeeee????huahuahuahua............Amos wants repLasment for sunday...who wanna werk on sunday...????i dowannnnnnnnn~...bOohoOOOo..no way aMos i dowannnn...bLuekz...hahahaha... ;p

ok ok...i'm in Love with yeLLowcard....onLy oNe.....and aLso gOod charLotte's i just wanna live..........feyyyyyyyoooooo...i LiKe...........

today today...

2005-02-14T20:23:00.000+08:00

today...woke uP around 2 pm...weeeheee~

hahaha...the first thing i heard when i woke up was..."oi bagun anak dara ape ni pukul dua pon belum bagun??"hahaha by my mum of course....weLL weLL...why i woke up that Late oso i doNo...tOo tired i guess...

weLL...bgun trOs ma mandi uh.....tkkan makan...waLaupon tgah Lapa...terpaksa tahan jugak...then..i've got nothing to do...sLacking...i dono what to do...borrow my mum's bOok...regarding...smtg uh...hahahaha

read read...goLek2 atas katiL...read read...sLeepy oredY...den mY mum asked me to get ready...whiLe on our way to mY sista's Sch...aT the bustOp...whiLe chiT chatting witH my mum, i saw wan and wahidah...hahaha...den after that azhar msged me...i dono Ley he was in that bus tOo...hahaha...azHar, bLanja me uh...the rides beside cp...can can can????hahaha...u want to bLanja me rite???herm herm...

oKok...kind of fULL uh...buT i stiLL wanna eat...hahaha...CraZy...tomoRRow werk.....yeah....what eLse...nothing eLse....i'LL update aGain Later...

sukenyer ngan blog akuuuuuu~

2005-02-13T18:49:00.000+08:00

i Love mY bLog!!!!nice, cute, sweet, pink....i Like.....weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

So tireD...upLoad stuFFs and aLL that...haiya...but then it Looks great...i Love it...heehee...i'm soo soo happy...yeay...~

okey...today actually i'm sLeepy...buT then not sLeepy oredY...yeay...at werk onLy...heehee...sLeepy tiLL i key in wrongLy so many tiMe...haiyo fafai...what's this????hahaha...weLL...went to werk with azhar just now...yeah and i tot i end werk at 5pm...with azhar...butden i forgot i end werk at 4...hahaha...yepppyyyyyyyy...hip hip hooRY....balik cepaT...hahahaha....ok ok...

actuaLLy today herm yesterday tOo...gonna meet my buddies...yeah...but yesterday most of dem can't make it...today...i wanna join them...but i can't make it...my brother is not at home...and who the hell gonna take care of my sista..???haiyo...kakak jugak...haiyo...takpe2....butden today onLy a few of them onLy at JP...sOorrY ya guYz i can't makE it....bOohOo...

ok ok...guess what...i dream about my scHooL againnnnnn..........hahaha...ok this time kind of crEEpy uh...but therEs nothinG...no ghoSt no LiL kid wit bLakie face and sTuff....errrrk...i donno why we were in our sch uniform...but guess what..there was my DARLING...hahaha...he's not in his uniform...yeah..hahaha...Lah...but we did'n chat...i'm kindoff herm..."sombong" didn't even Look at him...hahahha...Bluekz... ;p

i guess thats for now...see ya aLL in a whiLe...hahaha...

Haruskah..

2005-02-12T14:49:00.000+08:00

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aKu menberi...tetapi aku tdk merasakn..
dikaLa aku diLamun CINTA dengan dirimu
mengaPa kau jauh dariku...

tiada CINTA didalam dirimu...
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Tiada CINTA lain seheBat CINTAku...

HaruSkah aKu menanTi CINTA ini..
Kerna KAu masIh tk menGertI hatiKu..
tK perLu kuuCap "BABY, I LOVE YOU SO"
Kerna CINTA dirimU tk sehebaT CINTAku..

HArusKAh aku menaHan peraSaan
Tk saNgguP kau bermaIn di fiKiranKu..
tK perLu kuuCap apa diiMpikn..
JadikaN pengALAman CINTA kita BerdUa..

SeTeLah semuANya BerLaLu...haTiku sePi...
aKankU simpAn CINTAku ini..
DiKaLa engKau pergI dariKu
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Tiada CINTA di daLam dirimU..
BiarPun kau kaTa "BABY, I LOVE YOU"
Tiada CINTA geTaran ini
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Freeekin' Dreams...

2005-02-12T13:32:00.000+08:00

HoLa guYz...wat's up???

Fer me...nothinG's up...haha...kind of tired actuaLLy..yeah...herm and i'm sO shocked upon the dreams that i got yesterday nite...feeeewyyyooo...so damn scary...herm herm...dreamt of my SCHOOL!!!!!!!sOoOo freeeky...yOu-Noe-wHat???regaRding the toiLet...huahauahhuah...feeyooo~

ok it goes Like this...[this is weird...why i can still remember my dreams???not like as usuaL..]we i dono who's with me at that moment...[not in our uniform] went into the toiLet...the cubicaLs were aLL fuLL [donno why] it's Late at night...[what were we doing over there in the middle of the night???]*stunnnnnnned*ok ok now one of the dOor we pushed open and a gurL one of the ex-iRsyad went out witH a freeekin' scarY face...went out crying...we were so scard we made our mind not to continue...we ran out the toiLet...smTg is foLLowing us...[weLL freak me i feLt smtg's behind me right now]...grrrr...den we run run Like no body's business...den we rest...[i oso don't understand the story..]haha ok now, there were me, irfan and some others...now why i can see irfan is becoz, the thing was beside him...eeer...i saw the thing!!!!!!!!!!it was a smaLL gurL, in her night pyjamas...her face was damn bLack and her hair...[ahhh dowanna teLL...just freak me out!!]...seram skaLi mLm nie mimpi Lagi...tk nakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk~

ok ok not finished yet...the other part of my dream was....i donoe where were we...[i don't even noe who's the ppL with me]...they were some ppL from some other couNtry...coOL...ok ok...now the frEEkin' part was...aLL of us were [i dono how to teLL...]...herm...ok ok Like this...a sharp metaL pLank were forced intO our back...erk...get me????no bLood and not painfuLL...i kindof feeL it...serious...kindof it reaLLy happens...den erk...we were somehow doing a performance...hahaha...donow donow...kindof crazy...den we were aLL coupLes and stuff...i'm with this fare hansome guy...foooyooo...a white guy...hahaha...ok ok shut up...it's just a dream...and i dowanna do that siLLy performance...hahaha...

ok about today...went out with my parents to PLAZA SINGAPURA....heehee...oH ya...regarding yesterday..my famiLy went to my grandma's house...and the commens given to me was....[dowwanna say]hahaha...maLu...shy Ley...a gReat one...ok ok another one was..."sejak da keje nie makin kurus"[erk!!is that true????i don't think sOOOO]....since werking i'm so caLLed the fOOd monster sia...everywhere i go...i'LL definateLy eat...eat eat eat aLL the wAy...[KURUS ke?] no way...i'm not.... ;P

oKey tiLL here then...

tOday...

2005-02-11T17:53:00.000+08:00

HaHaHa....beLum apE2 da ketawe....

oKok...thE story goes like this...at my werkpLace today...as per normaL...do my werk Lah...den this siLLy boy...i ever saw him once uh...he went in with both his hands on his ears...what the...i ignore him and do my werk...den noe what????he put his handkerchief inside his mouth...as if he's eating it...chewing it...eeewww...disguesting!!!!den my Manager gave him some servette....dono for what...hahaha...den uh dis part i'm so freeeekin scary sia....bLurp bLurp...Sir Wan asked him...[with his finger on Joanne]"this is ur sista eh?" The silly boy said..."nO"...den Sir Wan asked him again..this time his finger's on me..."this is your sista?" then shockingLy...the siLLy boy said "yes"...what the...i dono wat to say...i left aLL my werk n run to the manager's room...i dowwan to seee him....scary Ley...scard dowan him to foLLow me go back home...fEEEyuh...now i'm aLL safe aT home...without him[the siLLy boy]..hahaha...sorry ya boy...i donno you and i'm not your sista okey???don't try to search for me...

ok Later after magrib, we[my famiLy] are going to my grandma's house...at yishun...what comment will i get from her....let's wait and listen....

Till here then...chow~

How's my new bLog??

2005-02-10T21:40:00.000+08:00

HOW'S MY NEW BLOG????fueL of anger in my mind in my heart and i'm gonna hurt everyone in my Life...TRUST me...i'LL do that!!!!i hate EVERYONE...i hate YOU, YOU, YOU and YOU...yeah...fun!!!

this is the NEW.ME.AHEAD........hahahahahaha...coOL...

read this thing...regarding gerhana, dajjal, wat eLse??Loud sound...nyway, what Loud sound...mY t'cer never touGht me that before...ANYONE, before i hurt you, wiLL you teLL me pUhLees...yeah BeBeh...teLL me...what Loud thing??????what oh what...duh!!!

that thing made me frrreeeekin' scary and so freeeekin' dono what to do exp. blame ppL...hurt ppL...and scoLd ppL...wahahahahaha...fun fun!!!!i'Ve got so Like freeeeeKin' many sins...wayTOgo you idioT!!!!go do some pRaying or eLse bLa bLa bLa.....didi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i neeeeeeeeed you soooooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
pUhLeeeeessssssssss meeeeeeeeet meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

didi puhLeees...i need You pLease i wanna meet yOu...puhLees...i'm bagging you...puhLees...i wanna CRY!!!!!!!!!bOoHOo...what a Lady-crybaBy!!SHUT UP!!!

Today is sunDay

2005-02-06T10:42:00.000+08:00

tOday is Sunday...a SickeniNg sunDay...i thinK i need da paNadoL...not reaLLy i thinK...i reaLLy need iT...

thiS is aLL becoZ i'm sOoOo soOoOo noT heaLty...yeah...friday had our tranning..it was fuN!!!tegOLek2 kT netbaLL court...hahaha...fun!!!we were entertained by the cina mampoS stuff...hahaha...sambiL tranning Leh joGet2...ape tak sume cramP!!!!!giLe uh!!!we were so aggrasive that we banged against each other hahaha...Lots of faLLing...and the goLek2 on top of each other sTuff...hahaha...fun fun...end our tranning at about 10 PLus at night...kind of tired...of course sey tired...and there goes the cramp...we were Like stupiD...waLk from the nettball court to Lakeside mrt station...actuaLLy boonLay mrt was juSt around the corner!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahaha...fun Lah...waLk very very veRy sLowLy...Like nO body's busiNess...kind oF scary actuaLLy...aLL the eyes there were on us...i reached home at about 11 pLus...yupz...wow...i had fever...and aLL the cramps....i tot of backing out...but then...no Lah...have confidents in myseLf...

there i go...the next day...yesTerdaY...was the tournament day...so scary...aTikah our best shOoter backed out!!!argggh!!nevermind...huda did preTTy weLL on shOOting...aLL the other teams were aLL damn taLL sia...we r Like...hahaha...dono...i playEd WA as per normaL...there's aZua, huda[s4], zahara[s5], hanisah[s2], hawa, adha, wajiha[s5], aiNuL[s5]...yeah...most of my teaMmatEs are from irsYad...yeah...noNe of them are mY ex-cLassmatEs...yurPz...fuN!!!we creaTe a better bonding with each other...yeah...oh and yah...maybe i'll be one of the fcy fer the kids camp...on marCh...coz they were aLL bagging me and teLLing me tO join...insya-aLLah i wiLL...

now, it's hard for me to move both my legs becoz of the cramps...need my weak hands to move them...haiYo...Like oLd Lady...heehee...my face!!!!hahaha buRn!!!freaking reD!!!!!!!!!!!oh gosh!!

next week chinese new yr Lah!!!

2005-02-03T20:45:00.000+08:00

tOng tonG toNg cHeng tonG toNg toNg chEng toNg tonG toNg cheng tong cheng tong cheng.......amacam?
sedap ark?Lagu sempena ari raya cine...oritez...

Just nOw went to herm..JB...yeah...eat eat eat...Lots and Lots of fOoOod tiLL i'm FuUuULLLLL...yeyeh...den den den...went back home...den boring...den dono wat to do...den surf the net uh...den my dad very the noisy...i feel Like you noe wat...den i went to my rOom...Listen tO wat song????titLe of the song is mY bLog's titLe...yeyeh...by Green day...sO fEELing...the voLume was fULL bLast...shuT the windOws...den i shoUt Like no body's business...yeahhhhhhhhhh~

den went out again.....with my mum and mu sista...went to adMiraLty MRT station...bought a PC game...butden sTupid uh...smtG is wrong with my pc...so cennoT werkz...den watever uh...den...azHar caLLed...eh eh...he msged me first...was so shocked Lah...he toLd me he saW me...hey...my mum LoOks young huh???yeah...

okeYLah...tiLL here then...i think thiS poSt is FuLL of crapZ...yeah...and haNzahar...do search for the stupid nonsense ok??u'LL never fine that stupid thing!!!wahahahkakakaka...chiLL...

yeaH cHiLL...

2005-02-03T10:30:00.000+08:00

ChiLL gurL...yeaH CHILL........

Hahaha...today doNo go where...toMorow there's NetbaLL tranninG.........weeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeee....but den verY verY tired.........i dono wat to bLab...coz i'm frEEEEking LAzy...bye!!

i nEEd an aLarm system in my house
so i noe when ppL are creePin' about
This ppL are frEEEEEkin' me oUt

it's geetin' hecTic everYwhere that i gO
They won't Leave me aLone
thErE's tHings they aLL wanna nOe
i'm paranoid of aLL the ppL i meet
whY are they taLkin' to me?
and whY can't anYone see?

i just wanna Live
don'T reaLLy care abOut the things they say
don'T reaLLy care abOut what happens tO me
i Just wanna Live
Just waNNa Live

Stop uR messin' arOund Boy
Betta ThinK of uR FUTURE
bEtta maKe soMe gOod PLanS boY
saId everyOne oF u Guy's T'cer

LOOKOUT
yOU beTTa pLay it saFe
yOu neva nOe whaT hard tImes wiLL come yOur waY
we saY
whErE we Are comin' fRom
we've aLreaDy seen
The woRst thaT this Life caN briNg!!

soRRy okey???

2005-02-02T17:06:00.000+08:00

i'm sOoOO bad!!!!!!i noe that........sorry Lah to who evEr tHat i've hurT...okey???haiz haiz.....i'm bad i'm bad...i noe i noe i'm bad!!!!!!no Lies...i'm bad so eviL bad bitCh!!!okey???i hate my Life i hate myseLf what eLse??i hate everyone!!!greaT!!!now you noe i'm bad!!!eviL deviLish gurLy bitChy naughtY me!!!yeaH!!...SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!

aiK tadi baru poSt..

2005-02-02T13:33:00.000+08:00

just poSt ...nOw wanna poSt again???seconD post fOr tOday....seee how boring i am!!!!!!

No Ones aT hoMe!!!i'am home aLone...doinG nothiNg...haiyaiyai ya yai.....toOk a batH at abOut 1p.m hahaha...cOoL...deN herm herm oUh yah...tuNe tO rumours bY LindseY iKan Lohan....again and again and again and again tiLL i'm fLat!!!........hahaha...dancinG Like oNe crazy Lady...yuRpz!!!

Herm hErm oH yah...yestErday...a Chinese Lady...shE obserVes mE Like craZy...hahaha...i was SoO sOo shOcked!!!shE suddenLy taLked tO me..."you are soOo FaiR uh???even fairrer then me..."huahahahha...den she said "is Your moTher a cHinese???" i smiLed anD say noPe...boTh my pareNts is a MaLay....then she smiLed and i smiLed anD shE smiLed anD i smiLed tiLL she fadEs awaY...hahaha...sOo cOoL...

YoOoOHoOoOo...hEy ppL noE im noT in da mOod oR aLL streSSed up......hOw hoW???wOw...juSt nOw onE of mY workMate toLd me that my tOne wasen't right...as if i'm stressfuLL....oh gosh!!he's right i am!!!!!!...

herm herm...my prepaid is ruNNing Low Low Low...nk top up ke tk nk???teLL me sombody teLL me...

waT eLse to WriTe???oH ya.....i read the new papER and i saw NAFA open house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i wanna go!!!!who shaLL i bring????erk...24 & 25 Fab...10a.m to 5p.m............cOoL...i wanna go!!!!

sOo sOo saD

2005-02-02T11:19:00.000+08:00

I'M soO sOo Sad...uwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

haiyo...there wiLL be a Tranning toDay...den i'm werking!!i can't jOin them!!bOring!!toDay and Friday...on friday i can join them but i hav to rush uh...and of course i'LL be Late...coz i end my werk at about 5 pLus...the tranning is at about 5...how Late can i be???why didn't the tranning be on thursday????what am i gonna Do on thursday...wHat a borinG day again!!!!haiz haiz....our tranning wiLL be at bpcc....yeah...

herm herm...yesterday...reached home at about 11.40p.m Lah...aRound there...my parentS were aLL asLeep...mY bro wasn't home yet..i tot of going back home with him...but then he was so damn freekinG Late...he reached home at about 12midNight wOOOohOoOo...FreaKy uh went home aLL aLone aT arouNd thaT tyme...nO one arOUnd...hOo hOo...deN suDDenLy there coMes Rabi my woRkmaTe...waLk togetHer wiTh hiM...yeaH...he rEmember my blk huh???hahaha...coOL...i ToT he doNo...buT...hahaha....

whY can't you just Let me do the things i wanna do i just wanna be me i don't understand why wouLd you wanna bring me down i'm onLy having fun i'm gonna Live my Life Like i wanna do..............

i'm tired of rumors starting i'm sick of being foLLowed i'm tired of peopLe Lying saying what they want about me why can't they back up of f me why can't they Let me live i'm gonna do it my way take this for just what it is.............

i've gotta say respectfuLLy i wouLd Like if yOu take the cameras off me cause i just want a LittLe room to breathe can you pLease resPect my privaCy................

i Just need to free my mind just wanna dance and have a gooooooooooood time..................

haiYo...toDay werK...

2005-02-01T11:46:00.000+08:00

i'm working today...haiyo...sO freaking Lazy...yeaH...thIs is aLL becoZ of the 3 day off thing...haiyo...but if i stay at home aLL day, i'll be boring...so don't understands myseLf..hahaha...watever..

yesterday sLept at about 11 pLus i guess..yeah..the netbaLL thing is doing fine...but i dono Ley when is the tranning...haiyo..hopefuLLy it's on Thursday...coz i'm off on that day...but den takkan 1 day jer tranning...buang tebiat tuL...nevermind2...ok now...the team wiLL NOT be aLL irsyadianz...yeah...aT first i tOt it wiLL be...buT noPe..siS shiMa toLe sHima that the group were full and they only need 2 ppL...so it's me n adhana...yeah...nice name...i tot her name is only adha...heehee...onLy yesterday i knew her fuLL name...coOL...

abOut this adha...a good friend indeed...heLpfuLL...yeah...we xchanges info with each other...yeah...regarding vltering werk and stuff...but too bad...i met her once onLy...we did pLan to go do the vltering werk together..but then tk kesampaian...and this sat we'll be meeting each other...yeah~

HopefuLLy the match this saturday wiLL be fine...just wanna reaLease My tentioN...yeah...toO mucH tentioN...and im no Longer heaLty...thats why...no more xcercising no more rough games...arggh make me remember aLL the sweet times we had the TC members with mr mUneer...FUN!!!!we pLayed aLL the rough things...yeah...mixing around...shouting Like no body's business...hahaha...pushing. puLLing, hiTTing yeah...my thumb got hit bY a hockey sticK...shuT up!!it hurts....................it was by sHima...hahaha...

Now i reaLLy reaLLy reaLLy miss my schooL days...it's reaLLy reaLLy reaLLy a harD time for Us to re-union...coZ we r aLL busy werkinG...oH gosh!!so Sad *soB soB*

YesterdaY night befoR i sleep, MusLiM caLLed me...weeeheeeeeeee...hahaha...nothing Lah..just a shoRt chaT regarding hps and Lifes...hahaha...and maybe on sunday we r goIng to JE...weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....go eat eat eat...yeah...wiLL be aLL the buDDies uh...GerEk!!!!!!!noW this thinG reminds me of something tOo...hahaha...sweet memoRies...yeah...about us Lah the buDDies...we went out eat eat eat...what eLse...haPPy2...then the next schooLing day, we were caLLed...first we the gurLs were caLLed...haiyO...shuT uP uh...iT was the first day of examination i guess...so stressFULL...u see, how im i not stressfuLL???he caLLed us during the test itseLf...i mean he toLd us Lah he wanted tO see uS afTer exaMinatioN...and the whoLe cLass were tHere ListeninG...shEEEz...den we haVe to wright this stupid repoRT...bwahahahaha...craZy...den the nexT day, the guyZ were caLLed...and they hav to write the report thing...den the other days aLL of us were caLLed...den the next next next day, nothing happens...CoOL...waste mY ink!!haiyO...

WoE today's Post are fULL wiTh my scHoOL memoRies...coOL...i miss my schOoLing dayS...*sob sob*

i'M right!!

2005-01-31T18:46:00.000+08:00

yeah i'm right!!!smtg is bothering me!!

argggggggghh!!im not ok...i spiLLed hot water on my tummy??crazy??how can i be that careLess???den i hurt my arm...ouch!!!can't i see the door???haizzz...why am i like this??why oh why??ouch!!

weLL...just now went out with my mum...went to pick up my sista...we talked about my life...my relationshipsss...weLL we started talking bout it coz Shi Xian smsed Me...thats why...oh gosh...he won't give up!!he wiLL aLways say smtg then "Coz i am...your friend.....""coz you are...my friend" oH gosh...he wanted to see me tomorrow...cooOL...at about 10pm he'll drop by my werk pLace...weLL his woRk pLace tOo...haiz haiz...i wanted to teLL her smtg...but...nevermind...now i'm so very confused!!!!i and my sista drop by my work pLace...bought smtg then chit chat for a while den went back home...hermmmmm.....Shut Up wiLL you!!!arggggggh!!!so confused!!!

i'm SoO soOo coNfused!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

waT aboUt tOday

2005-01-31T15:30:00.000+08:00

hErm hErm yesterday...yesterday...herm herm...yesterday...

Do nothing...boring + happy + boring + tired + angry = what i feLt yesterday...

boring because didn't go anywhere...bOohoOo...mYra did called me and she asked me to Go lepAk2 wiTh her...buT den i bLurrrpppz...so tiRed den dowan to meet her...haahaa...aLah her ehem oso asked her to tros bLik what...so go BALIK...don't maYap!!haahaa...

Happy....??herm donno...am i happy??ask me am i??i donno...haiz...am i happy??weLL..i don't think sOoOo...im sOOo noT haPPy...Shut uP!!

Tired cOz...so sLacK at hoMe..do noThing...ok ok actuaLLy did some house werk Lah...sweeeeeep the house, Jemur kain n stuFfs uh...goOd guRL huh??yeAh!!*wink wink*

angrY??am i angry??yeahhhhhhhh...with who??herm...mY siSTa..so iRRitating...everyone in this house were irritated by her...at aLL times she will be saying this.."zafirah nak swimming" 100x...foooh...can you imagine...??how iritating can that be??haiz haiz.........................

so sLack sia...toDay??haiyo!!!!!!!!!!boring!!knape tk keje!!!!!!!!!boring seyyyyyyy!!!!!!

my werking dayz...3 days onLy???warrawweyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!good Lah...But so boringggggggggggggg!!!!!
tuesDay 6pm - 11pm
wednesdaY 6pm - 10pm
Friday 10am - 5pm

haiz haiz.....what am i thinking...something is bothering me...why oh why????arggggggggggggggggh!!!!shut up!!!

GoT.ThiS.arGgH

2005-01-29T21:01:00.000+08:00

aRLow everyone...

Happy today..but kind of tiring...went to JB in the morning...woke up as earLy as 8 a.m wow!!so damn earLy...went to hoLiday pLaza...send ad to do his thooth thing...aLL the shops there were not yet open...so we aLL were sLaking in the so gLoomy creePy dentaL...haahaa...afTer that...wenT to my granDma's pLace for a whiLe...den went to angSana....fOoOoyOoOo...ketoK my mUm manY stuFF..[PadehaL dah dapaT gaji]..bought shoe[both me n my brother]..haahaa...den bought herm some gurL things uh...make ups n stuFF...braceLet...bLa bLa bLa...herm herm...oH ya...fOrgOt...befOre goinG to the denTaL thinG, we wenT to dangA baY...go Eat!!...brakefaSt...yeah...

tOday nOt werKing...buT haVe to wake Up earLy...haiyO...mayBe nExt weeK. i have to werK 2 daYz tiLL 11 or 10 p.M....arGgGghhh...buT not on weeeKenDs uh...pissed off wit my dad then taLked with my manager i wanna change...den tada...done!!

Yo thIs one chiNese guY...wonT give u on Me...oh gosh...how oh how...on thursday, we meT at werk...we are totaLLy Like straNgers...OH gosH...so saD...i remembered once he toLd me...we are friends then next we are enemies then we are strangers...awwww...so sad...make me wanna cry...*sob sob*come on duDe...we can still be friends no matter what right???ChiLL-Like what you always said to me-ChiLL...

To mY darLing...i'm So shOcked uPon what you've toLd me...but for me it's tOo earLy my deaR...im not yet prepared...too too earLy...even 07 is too earLy...why you suddenLy think about that??kind of shocked...herm herm......but im happy Lah...at Least i noe someone reaLLy Loves me and do reaLLy care for me...and reaLLy reaLLy want to be with Me...Love ya..heehee...

herm i think tHis is tOo Long...tiLL next time...

Eat.eaT.eat.and.More.oF.eaTinG

2005-01-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

haiYo...eat je keje....

haiyo haiyo...keje eat balik go out wit famiLy eat...eat eat eat...yesterday...went to cP...eat at Pizza Hut...i ate 4 big slice of Pizza...warrawwey...den ate a stoney cheesecake...another warrawwey...so hard like stone...real...no joke...den...eat eat till so damn full...cannot walk...hahaha...den after that reach home sleepy oredy...another another warrawwey...hahaha...crazy huh???

Den today...after werk...went to taka...wit my parents...den went to mcD...warrawwey...hahaha...my parents ate single burger i ate doubLe...hahahaha...so damn freaking donow why am i so into food...hahaha...stressful maybe...den in the car on our way back home...im still chewing smtg....tiLL im really2 full..i feel like puking....hahaha...just now went to taka...haiyo...bought this toy for my sister...my mother like sogok her sey...buy her stuffs bcoz she want her to go to schooL...watever...i told my mum...if my sister say that she dowan to go to schooL...take the axe oiL...put on her lips...biar dier tk brani ckp lagi...if not pon bawak cili go mane2...if she said then to bad...nasib kau uh...hhahahaha...irritating sey...every minute say she dowan to go to sch...haiyo...

tiLL here uh...kind off boring + pissed off with my father...arggggggggh!!